#i could go on multiple long wants bc there's Layers but akakfkalal i just want a long hug ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡

[cinna-bunnie]

me as a kid: haha birthdays are so silly, i wouldn't want a party i would hate to have to cleanup afterwards!!

me as an adult: if i stepped into any room full of people who thought my existence was inherently worth celebrating i would immediately curl up and cry hysterically about it

#me: aha christmas n new years r coming up but i got this i am okay #*remembers my birthday is also coming up somewhat* oh ): #my friends irl do not care about me and i doubt one of them is going to even last until my birthday #i.. i don't even know enough ppl to try hosting a party and inviting myself. this yr has been hell. and I've done well at handling it #but like. 😐 #it's still been a pretty bad year overall... idk. family oriented times of the yr are ROUGH!! especially the first yr u spend alone #this has been my first year alone in like seven or eight years and it sucks!!!!! #and I'm stuck this way bc im too rent burdened to actually go out as often as i need to and Meet People 😐 #i could go on multiple long wants bc there's Layers but akakfkalal i just want a long hug ｡⁠:ﾟ⁠(⁠;⁠´⁠∩⁠`⁠;⁠)ﾟ⁠:⁠｡ #rly don't want to work today and just want to curl up in bed n play my game