#i crave a release from this horrid purgatory i have found myself in

[nonbinarynightcrawler]

Every time I think about digging into my Fortune Backstory Documents and pulling out bits to share or turn into comics or something, something else happens and I lock that shit down quicker than my computer can load them up

#'just like astarion!' #and 'he gives me big mollymauk/lucien/kingsley vibes' echo daily in my head #literally moments ago I mentioned something small and the person I was talking to told me about another character with the exact same Thing #I suffer and this suffering is brought down wholly on my inability to come up with Original Content #i know it's petty and silly but like #the hype around astarion is legitimately part of why I've scrapped like. twelve or so comics about Fortune #on the off chance they take off like my stupid little tiktok i just KNOW i KNOW #the astarion accusations would be all anyone would talk about #and i'm just so tired #ive had a person tell me I drew my tav in astarion's shirt but i 'drew the shirt wrong' #the most recent one was 'oh cute! a wyll/astarion fankid!' #i crave a release from this horrid purgatory i have found myself in #i dont even own the game bc please leave me alone