#i dnt wanna overshare cuz i always do that lol but mothers day is coming upp... uh. soon

[oscill4te]

i genuinely love my mom so much but its also like you are the most confusing person ever

#i dnt wanna overshare cuz i always do that lol but mothers day is coming upp... uh. soon #so i guess im just thinking about her. i genuinely love her so much. as alwayz its hard tho #she is also the funniest woman in the world to me. most people would say shes a horrible person #shes just rough around the edges. idk #one time she pointed at a couple outside and wz like “those two are so ugly; its like they were made for each other!!” #is it bad that i find humor in her meanness? shes just like. so funny to me #her negativity makes me laugh i guess xD #and if shes nice to you she genuinely means it. I think i love my mom a lot bc i see a lot of myself in her #shes very “split up” like me her opinions change all the time and im like. me too!!! #yes she can be fake but i think she genuinely does “flip/switch” a lot the way i do #and i never met anyone else other than my mom who so openly did that yknow #she can love and hate you at the same time. she simutaneously will love animals and hate them. gay ppl. ect #she seems to idk. be really inconsistent and fragmented like me and only now do I see it #i love my mom. i cant help it even with everything thats happened its like how can i not love someone who held me in her jacket #as it snowed outside before school? i cling so hard to that memory #i will be seeing family 2 times this month but i feel quite at peace with it right now #in april i was not thrilled at all but today im feeling some peace