#i don't wanna call the doctor's office ㅠㅠ

[tardis--dreams]

I should call the doctor's office *calls, in tears* *they don't pick up* oh thank GOD above- i should call the doctor's office *shaking and throwing up while calling* *they don't pick up* oh hell yeah! I should call the doctor's office *calling* please don't pick up please don't pick up please don't pick up ple *they don't pick up* I'm so happy rn! Aw fuck i still need to call the doctor's office though ㅠㅠ *they don't pick up* ah well i tried my best I'll just ask in person on friday when I'm there anyway (((:

My mother: *shakes head disappointedly*

#you know the problem is that i am terrified of calling people but i will get over myself and do it #but if they don't pick up up to 30 times it just doesn't work #i need to ride the wave of initial bravery to avoid further avoidance #but if they don't pick up i have an excuse to avoid more calling because hey it's useless anyway and I WILL be there in person later #this week anyway #it's just that i probably should have called earlier so maybe i could get an appointment this Friday already or they could prepare what i #need and i wouldn't need to come in again #but oh god i hate it so much i want to wither away and die #i need to make a plan on how I'll approach this on Friday though #I'll need to state what i need as soon as i get there when i say why I'm actually there (the vaccination) #so I'll have to say something like 'hi I'm here for the vaccination and also have a question/request that I need to address- #*explain what i need* can you do that or do i need to make another appointment for it?' and then they'll hopefully tell me what to do #god i wish i were dead #i should probably call once more :/ #i also need to call the hair dresser which is a lot less stressful but also I'm scared of that bitch(tm) picking up the phone #instead of literally anyone else who works there- she is the worst but oh well i gotta take some risks i guess #void screams #i don't wanna call the doctor's office ㅠㅠ