#i don't wanna look at them anymoreeeeeeee it's so tiring

[bednbunfast]

wip that i will be finishing later

im just very tired rn

#i have their appearance memorized but not the colors so uhhhhhh #ref it is babyghorl #that reminds me...ref...refrigerator... #may donut pa kaya sa ref namin... #gago gutom nako sana may ulam na tas donut dessert hehe #i don't wanna look at them anymoreeeeeeee it's so tiring #🎐 ily but i hate you. bane of my existence fr. but also...light of my boring life. #i enjoy acting as you sometimes but... why did you have to inherit my inability to say the things they want #why did i instill that on you #even while playing around you're consious of everyone's thoughts and feelings and it often leads you to letting them 'go first' #what do you have to gain other than losing a possible 'future' where you're probably happier? #can't you be selfish? #even in the seperate lore i have ready just in case. you mend people's bonds but in the end they're just customers #and you're still bound to the cafe you were first hanged as just... a windchime #customers will come and go and what about you? you'll be stuck welcoming them with a gentle chime #you were a windchime yet you wanted to become human. was it love for their love of others really your driving force? or were you envious? #why am i ranting in the fucking tags