#why am i ranting in the fucking tags

[bednbunfast]

wip that i will be finishing later

im just very tired rn

#i have their appearance memorized but not the colors so uhhhhhh #ref it is babyghorl #that reminds me...ref...refrigerator... #may donut pa kaya sa ref namin... #gago gutom nako sana may ulam na tas donut dessert hehe #i don't wanna look at them anymoreeeeeeee it's so tiring #🎐 ily but i hate you. bane of my existence fr. but also...light of my boring life. #i enjoy acting as you sometimes but... why did you have to inherit my inability to say the things they want #why did i instill that on you #even while playing around you're consious of everyone's thoughts and feelings and it often leads you to letting them 'go first' #what do you have to gain other than losing a possible 'future' where you're probably happier? #can't you be selfish? #even in the seperate lore i have ready just in case. you mend people's bonds but in the end they're just customers #and you're still bound to the cafe you were first hanged as just... a windchime #customers will come and go and what about you? you'll be stuck welcoming them with a gentle chime #you were a windchime yet you wanted to become human. was it love for their love of others really your driving force? or were you envious? #why am i ranting in the fucking tags

[alevens]

zolu is maybe one of the easiest ships i've ever liked. they're dating, except when they're not, they're best friends even when they're kissing and they're still captain and first mate when they aren't. they hold hands, they hug. they have sex. they don't.

Luffy can hold Zoro's katanas and Zoro can hold Luffy's strawhat and no one bats an eye. one says "You're so cool!" and the other says "You're strong" and it's just another way to say "I see you, this is why I follow you/this is why I trust you". it's not seeing each other for a long time and still knowing how the other's steps sound like against wood and sand. the captain runs and the first mate follows. it's always "Zoro and the others" and "Where's Luffy?"

if they're just friends, if they're something more, if they don't have a label for it, at its core, it's just about how they get each other. they understand how the other's mind works. however you view them, it doesn't erase they fact that they love each other in a way they don't love other people.

#zolu #on why i love zolu #seeing the hate its gotten on its own tag #i figured i'd put it on my two cents #i am aroace and i do hc Luffy as aroace #the same for Zoro if i'm honest #but the thing about this hc is that not only it isn't canon #but is an actual spectrum #what really made me pause was that the argument was that zolu was an “icky” ship bc of how they viewed Luffy as aroace #i would have prefered they just said they hate the ship #it makes sense as i do too hate ships without reason sometimes #but it was how they seemed to view aromatic/asexual people that fucked me up #both orientations are spectrums #the way i see it and experience it isn't the same other people do #giving this label and then saying it only woks on one way is disrespectful to the many people that fall under this umbrella #it isn't as simple as saying “aromantic folks can't experience love” and “yeah ace folks all find sex disgusting” #everyone is different everyone has different views and it's about finding what fits *you* personally! #sorry for the rant on tags i just wanted to get it off my chest #i've seen more people explain it better and break it down more coherently #and i'm so so glad to see so many big brained people ready to communicate on why that take just wasn't it #one piece

[chrollohearttags]

I literally never had an issue or felt insecure abt my sexuality until I start interacting with heteronormative, allo ppl lmao. one convo and I’m ready to off myself.

#cherry chats 🍒 #rant in tags #like how am I supppsed to respond lmao #and please don’t get me started on the infantilization #‘you poor baby you just haven’t found the right person yet 🥺’ please go to hell lmao #and I’m so serious #it’s so frustrating bc you’re literally happy and then the world around you makes you feel like ur broken bc you don’t live like them #‘ur still a virgin? that’s so cute 🥺’ I literally wasn’t comfortable being around a man alone until 2 yrs ago and couldn’t tell anybody why #lmao get the fuck out my face #and I shouldn’t have to disclose trauma to justify something I’ve felt since I was old enough to understand relationships #cw discourse #cw sa implied #cw acephobia #cw arophobia #i’m sorry yall #I’m just in a spicy mood tonight #one of my old friends hmu just to talk about her man and I wanna claw my eyes out #this is why I’ve been ghost from social media for 6 mos

[nishihii]

rennala marika toxic yuri i cant get you out of my head

#long rant incoming #it is very much implied that marika and radagom are their own people/personalities. theyre just stuck in the same body #i am of the belief that radagon was created or manifested after marika ascended to godhood #as his presence is mysterious and miriel was actively confused as to why just. some guy. some champion would have so much control over an- #-army (referring to the caria/erdtree war) #i think its fascinating to think radagon and marika are the same person. not just in the literal inhabitance of the body. like two- #-different sides of a person #but the lore very much leans towards them having their own conscience #as much as i like the former idea #BUT the description of the preceptors hat/mask has implications that rennala possibly knew of this secret #because what other secret does radagon have to hide? #and like. she stayed with him despite this. #(sorry for the amount of this i said imply/implication) #there is not much material to go off of for marika/renalla but its not like there isnt ANY #toxic yuri...... #i once talked about an interesting parallel between them but i literally have to fresh myself up on that #as i dont think about them very often #edit: oh fuck me dead i forgot to tag spoiler #elden ring spoilers

[caruliaa]

just bc im a lesbian doesnt mean tht i wont at times become deeply entranced with the beauty of male actor or character. it just means i wld rather be locked in a room with a man with a knife than do anything romantic or sexual with one

#NO OFFENCE TO MEN AS PEOPLE THAT EXIST. but also i shldnt have to say tht after saying this yk #also b4 u say ooh ur aro tho why do u need to specifcy u wldnt do anything romantic w a man when i wldnt with a woman either #i am actually pretty romance favorable. like i would be in a romantic relationship with a woman if it wldnt ruin my life #with how it is rn . i think i like and want all the parts tht make up a romantic relationship i just dont experince romantic attraction #but anyway i was here to talk abt my sexuality not my romantic orientation #this post was originally like 'im remembering why there was such a huge overlap with my og major starkid hyperfixation #and me identifing as bisexual' but the thing is is the main main guy from starkid i remember being attracted too #was infact . rob. and thats aged badly bc of it being revealed that hes a fucking creep since then #but also just now not that we should ignore tht but regardless of that i just. dont see it at all #maybe it is that news subconsiously turning me off him but i really dont see that much what i liked abt his appearance #but who rly inspired this post to me is infact . jeff blim ? which is suprising just from the fact tht i dont ever remember #having tht big of a crush on him with that og starkid hyperfixation. but well he is a very beautiful man . giggling a little bit. sorry . #also becoming a bit obsessed with joey richter but thts just standard lesbian obssesion with a weird little man #not attractive to me im just obssesed with him. hi #also posting this now so when i finally watch the fnaf movie i can rb it abt josh hutcherson #anyway. does anyone read these tags do these long rants i go on like. turn ppl off of my posts. sometimes i wonder #flappy rambles

[total-drama-brainrot]

Alenoah, where Noah cares about Alejandro, more than Alejandro's family did:

Noah: I will now torture you.

Alejandro: Kinky!~

Noah: I think you are brilliant and beautiful.

Alejandro: Wait!

Noah: You deserve to be cared for and loved, despite your mistakes.

Alejandro: No!

Noah: Your feelings and needs are valid, and deserve to be heard.

Alejandro: I need a safeword! 😳

Real.

#almost went on a whole rant here about how alejandro wouldn't know how to process unconditional care and support-- #for himself as a person instead of the praise he receives for his persona/mask/“charming” act #and also how this ties in to him being starved for genuine affection/love which is why it's so ironic shipping him with noah of all people #since noah is not the type to show a lot of affection. at least not publicly- and even when he does it's usually veiled behind a layer of-- #sarcasm and/or prickliness. he's like a hedgehog. #but noah WOULD absolutely break out the big guns once he's realised just how fucked up alejandro's home life and subsequent psyche is #“i am going to hurt you emotionally” #“do your best” #“i love and cherish you as a person and expect nothing in return. i care about you and your feelings. you're my top priority.” #cue alejandro ugly crying into a tub of ice cream #noah's trying to comfort him (awkwardly) but it's making it worse because noah caring about him even at his worst is The Issue #alejandro gets to have a breakdown over finally having a healthy relationship. as a treat. #total drama #td alejandro #td noah #alenoah #others' ideas #ophe's ranting in the tags again #replies

[utilitycaster]

Ok so like. Just to be clear, saying you know "loneliness you don't" to someone who has also experienced loneliness, but in a different context, and then apologizing the next day: bad. infuriating. terrible. unforgiveable.

Asking someone repeatedly, in a group and then alone, if perhaps the people who murdered them in the street solely because of their connection to you might be in the right: totally cool. not even worth remarking upon. not a red flag.

#i am restraining myself so very much i have like a five page rant #but like. with all due respect what the actual fuck. #actually still restraining myself but here's a tag: would love to know why it was totally chill to harass real-ass people #for being open to a narrative where a character dies #and then turning around and being *infinitely* more sympathetic to her murderer than to like. most NPCs and honestly half the PCs. #like. god. the tags on my posts feel so...obligatory and tautological like isn't it exhausting #critical role spoilers

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[imminent-danger-came]

So. MK being a very identity centered character right. You don't have a character say "Until I know what I am, what my destiny is? I can't risk hurting the people I care about, the one's I have left", who constantly compares himself to his predecessor, without that being one of the character's main conflicts right. And I've talked a lot about MK and labels on this blog, and I think as part of MK's s5 spiral we can expect a loss of his sense of self. 100%. Like that's where this is going right. We dipped our toes in in s4 and now we're going into the deep end. They never resolved his monkey identity. "Who or what you are, even I do not have the answer." Like they literally answered neither of those questions! Who is MK! What is he! What plans does fate have for him! How will MK feel about and respond to those plans, especially in conflict or concordance with his title as the "Plan Man"! In conflict or concordance with his identity as MK! As the Monkie Kid! I am eating the drywall over here

#just why did the s4 special set things up like that. why. #dragons don't look this TOTALLY has nothing to do with our discord convo ahahaha #I just maybe also agree that a loss of sense of self fucks severely. And I have brainworms #anyways #*shakes lmk* WHAT IS HE. WHAT IS HE!!!!! #I have been asking this question for 11 months since my lmk descent began. Screaming. Shaking. Crying. #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk theme: identity #lmk MK #lmk rant #what i am #rarely get to use that tag that's pretty exciting

[dummerjan]

i just came across ai covers on youtube and people are requesting songs in the comments instead of getting enraged and i am further losing hope in humanity and turning to misanthropy

#meins #for a minute i got really excited about henning may singing take me to church :( #i hate people #have you no appreciation for or understanding of art? clearly not. #why would you want to listen to an ai generated song? even if it sounds like your favourite singer it's not them #it has no feelings to meaning to intention. it is empty and soulless #reading the booklet for sinéad o'connor's album of traditional irish and folk songs gave me so much appreciation for her #she wrote a little bit about each song. why she chose it or what it means to her. #it has added so much to my enjoyment of those songs and i think of it whenver i listen to it #they were chosen with intention with love with a deep appreciation for the music and lyrics and there is a story behind it all #it is art and love and human #i see aboslutely no appeal in ai generated 'music' or 'art' #and i hate that i fell for it for a minute #i was sceptical because i had never heard of henning may covering hozier and since it wasn't just 20-60 sec i am certain #i would have heard about it by now #and something was just a little bit... unsatisfying? something was missing which does apply to a lot of cover songs #(i could go on hour long rants about why people fuck up danny boy (and sinéad o'connor does it best (because she actually takes her time) #or trash madonna's version of don't cry for me argentina (again a song ruined for by everybody else but sinéad - once she has sung somethin #i have a hard time enjoying it by anybody else. the parting glass is an exception. hozier's version is phenomenal)) #but! henning may not giving it his all for a cover? unlikely. very unlikely. #anyway this concludes my tuesday night rant. rather here in the tags than some poor person's inbox. #or i would have kept fuming by myself for another hour or two

[crabussy]

I want to take a bite out of someone's arm but I'm too shy

#it's ok to reblog this post and ignore the rant in the tags I don't mind at all /gen #hi guys #got another load of trauma from school #and I am not dealing with it well at all my legs have been shaking so badly for 4 hours now #had a panic attack so bad that my face went numb and the edges of my vision went black and my legs gave way #I hate my teacher she's horrible god I can't even go into it here there's so much #I'm tired of getting abused at school I've been to half a dozen schools and have not gotten traumatised at ONLY ONE OF THEM #I have no adults I can go to about this #whenever I try to talk with her and the head teacher about the situation and why I'm fucking terrified of her she acts so patient and kind #whenever I'm alone with her she will yell at me about everything I'm doing wrong and continue yelling even when I'm in tears #she will berate me and put me down and insult me directly #when she gives feedback she always puts effort into making it hurt #the language she uses for negative feedback is never what a teacher should say it's always personal and uses your weaknesses to hurt you #I get really bad intrusive thoughts about her hurting me physically because of how terrified I am of her #the worst part is she acts nice and sweet whenever she's not picking apart my weaknesses and being cruel about my disabilities #I felt so sick after that I haven't eaten since #vent tw #trauma tw #listen to my gibberish boy #ggod I hate this school

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[mondaymelon]

remember when you told me that kim dojka has childbearing hips

what... what about it?

are you denying it?

have you i seen his waist. good lord. it's so fucking snatched. what right does he have to make him that attractive. his body just screams homosexual like what are you, as a man, doing having a waist that s c r u m p ti io u s? gay. gay gay homosexual gay you whore <333 33. 3

i love him so much his hips goddamn his hips OH GOOD LORD EVERYTHING ABOUT HIM IS SO IS SO IS SO IS SO iS SO IS SO COMBUSTS

i dont like children honestly i hate them with like a burning passion 99.9 percent of the time like those hand sanitizers that kill all but .000000001 percent of the germs

WELL. KIM DOKJAS CHILDREN. THEY WOULD BE AN EXCEPTIOn

LIKE SUUUUURE JOONGDOK IS GREAT AND ALL (please the amount of people i would massacre just to hold kdj's hand. just to see his pathetic sopping wet cat self. just to see him breathe just to see him blink jsust being in his prescence i think id die )

II KNOW FOR A FACT YOU DONT KNOW SHIT ABOUT ORV> BUT THERES THIS CHAPTER IN THE DFJDOISFJOD AND LIKE LIEK LIEKE HE GETS DURNK AND GODDAMN HIS FACE HIS FAC HAS NOOOO RIGHT TO Be THAT PRETYT HE HAS NO RIGHT IN BEING THAT PReTTY

"ugly kING" EDXCUSE ME!!?!!? WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOURE TAKLING TOO RIGHT NOW?!?!?! HAVE YOU SEEN THE MAN (spoiler. they physically cant BUT I MEAN LIK SE SKILL ISSUE YOU JUST ARENT OWRTHY ENOUGH HONESTLYU )

ohh... oh to be .. in a poly... with joongdok.. OH... TO JUST HAVE KDJ LOOK IN MY DIRECTION JUST ONCE>...

OH!!! MYBAD!!! I COMPELLTELY FORGOT ABOUT CHILDREN1!! YES, LET ME EXPLAIN

SSOSO. HIS HIPS> THEYRE SO GODDAMN THEYRE SO GRABBABLE AND HOOOOLLUYYY SHIT HIS THIGHS HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOlY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT HOL SHIT !!!!!!!!! I KNOW FOR A FACT THAT HED BE THE ONE BAERING THE CHILDREN BECAUSE I MEAN HEY MPREG IS CANON IN ORV SO LMAO ILL FIND A STIGMA THAT MAKES IT WORK OR SOMETHING

sigh.. man. running in front of. atruck seems soooo tempting rn.

oh yeah btw i didnt tell you this i was literally walking and almost got hit by a car <33 in the parking lot lmao

my head is so full of kdj right now. i jut. i just cant . hes so. hes uhg hes so uhgjdfljslkfjk the amount of times ive cried to him during class is probably a cause for concern BUSDIFJOKL THE OFFICIAL ART... OF HIm.. WITH YJH... WHERE hES SMILING AN...D.... HE LOOKS...SO HAPPY... SOBOSBSOBSOBOSBOS

#★ ˎˊ˗ melonrambles! #★ ˎˊ˗ inbox... mooties!! #⋆˙⟡♡ᝰ.ᐟ - kyoi ( stares dreamily out the window... sigh... kim dokja ... )!! #should i go on another rant in the tags FUCK IT WHY NOT #OKAY OKAY . HEAR ME OUT #WAIT FOR IT #DRUMROLLL... #kim dokja. #KIM DO K J A !!!!!! #JFKDLFDKFJ I LOELVOEVLDLVJ HIMS O MUCH HES SO RELATBLA EEHS SO SILLY HES SO ATTRACTIVE I LOVE HIS CAHRACTER I LOVE HIS PLTO I LOVE HIS BEAU #BEUATIFUL MIND I LVOE HOW HE USES HIS WITS TO ESCAPE THE SITUATION i loVE LOVE LVOE BLACKBOX FOR BLESSING HIM WITh SUCH A GORGEOU SFACE. I #LOVE IT WHEN HE DOES THAT ONe EYE THING THAT MAKES ME ABSOLUTELY. FErAL #I LOVE D IT IN THE CONSTELLATION BANQUET WHEN he FINALLy GETS AN OUTFIT CAHNGE AND ITS A GODDAMN SUIT AND HOLLluyyy sHIT #I LOVE LOVE LVOE THE ENTIRE KING THINGMABOB ARC BECAUSE GYADDAMN THAT THAT OUTFIT WAS SOOO FINE AND HIS PANTS GOOD LOrd yOU COULD SEE HOW s #GOdDMAN SNATCHED He WAS T H R O U G H THE FABRIC #I AM ACTUALLY NOT SHITTING YOU RN IM LAYIGN ON MY BeD MSILING BLUSHING GIGGLING AND KCIKING MY FEET DFJOIFJDLKFJD EEE E E. EKIM DOKJADJFDKJ

[palebloodcvrse]

I cannot be normal about liking characters

Vergil I feel like is suspended in that permanent state of being at war with his need to connect with others (his family) and his need to isolate himself to prevent himself from being hurt again

And i feel that so deep in my soul that its not even fucking funny. Vergil is way more than just his trauma I know,(evidently, even the story presents that he had to overcome it to change and grow as a person) but those feelings are a part of him and a part of what made him human

And he despised that part of himself so much because he feared ever being hurt again and did inexcusable things (same as fuck)

Every day I think about him my heart fucking bleeds, and I find all those memes dissing him and calling him dense for it (bc he was) both extremely funny and true but also so tragically close to home that it feels like self deprication to laugh at.

I think I need to go to therapy instead of crying over fictional men

I hate to be more emo than V(ergil) is and ik this is corny but goddamnit I can see the pain in his fucking eyes

I do not idolize him. He is a reflection of me and it made me confront a part of myself that I wish I never had to achknowledge.

#vergil sparda #vergil #rant #vergil angst #i love him sm #And another thing is that everyone on tumblr agrees that he is an absolute fucking loser (ngl his actions warranted these consequences) #its funny but it also makes me feel like this is exactly why people dislike me #i love him bc hes as pathetic as me #stop reading the tags oi #yknow what fine keep reading them #i think the takeaway here is that hes emo af and so am I #i can fix him 😭 #jk. i cant #he will in fact make me worse #but let me live my delusions of being held in his arms