#i dont know if its the yearly summer psychosis or. well i dont know. but everything does feel helpless and hopeless and blablabla

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not to get dramatic but it does feel like nothing I'm doing now matters cause anyway there's gonna be a massive social collapse in like 5-10 years (probably way less let's be honest) so it's like. why should I work on a future if there's no future at all. idk. it's 1am.

#every night im like i shouldn't stay till 1am cause i get weirdly melodramatic and every night im out here #thinking abt the impending economic crash and environmental disaster #like im scared of having the fan on cause its like. oh no im wasting the little resources we have #then i think about places like. uh dubai. idk. and its like oh okay so my little devices dont matter #but THEN its like. or do they? am i actually helping to the destruction of pur world by using my convenient fridge and my electricity and #and my car?? am i little by little destroying the earth? #no actually its miss swift and her jets. and also every factory ever. but im still scared about my fan. #so i just sweat the night away. and then i fear that when i shower im also wasting water like. DO U SEE THIS. i feel insane #i dont know if its the yearly summer psychosis or. well i dont know. but everything does feel helpless and hopeless and blablabla #ok goodnight good chat<3