#i hate being unprofessional + i hate feeling like i'm fighting a worthless battle. i should've just let her run her mouth

[stinkbeck]

oi i’m pissed 2 high heaven

#B) but not anymore <3 #my magic healing words #also i'm sick of trying 2 figure out why people dislike me lol. like who gives a shit. #they don't even have any goddamned taste #it was honestly my bad 4 being like 'oh maybe i should let myself make friends + be social' cause i already knew it would end in disaster u #know. i can't really trust most people + i also know that i'm kind of a temporary person in the irl world #the buds that are nice though were absolutely worth it. i wish she wasn't the loudest fucking voice lol. + i wish i hadn't reacted at all #i hate being unprofessional + i hate feeling like i'm fighting a worthless battle. i should've just let her run her mouth #i feel bad 'cause this friend i really respect picked up the emotional slack + i wish she hadn't had 2 do that. :/ i really care about her + #don't want her worrying over petty drama like this #honestly i also feel bad about being upset with this other friend but u can only be fucking weird so many times before someone talks back #like genuinely causing a distraction so i can't do the work that BOTH OUR NAMES are going on professionally? that shit is not endearing! #idk. i don't know what her game is so i don't know how to spin this in a positive light lmao.