#i just am like. suckerpunched by doubt All The Time even tho i have YEARS of evidence that should b more than enough 2 prove that i have not

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i make the same post in a different way almost every day butlike god. i am fucking crazy. squidward im insane.jpg if u will

#quarantine makes the worms in my brain go CRAZYYYYYY like. i can fuckin SENSEthe cycles i put myself thru i just dont know how 2 break them #i just am like. suckerpunched by doubt All The Time even tho i have YEARS of evidence that should b more than enough 2 prove that i have not #nothing 2 worry abt!!!! im jumping off the track and claiming my destiny!!! im getting what i want most of the time!!!! and YET im wounded s #so easily and um. 2 quote A Certain Source.... im so quick 2 underestimate others’ capacity to like. deny me what i want and im too quick 2 #cast myself as a b*rden and that shit. even tho i am Constantly told im not one. like whats not clicking!!!!! whats not clicking!!!!!!!!!!!! #also i was readin back thru old stuff i wrote today like. listing out aome Tr*umatic Moments that i didnt realize were traumatic until i #listed them in october or wheneber i did it and it made me so sad like. oh thats why i am the way i am. I See The Type Of Person You Are.jpg #anyways. ive said this but these days im CONSTANTLY thinking of that ‘we’re exploring the deep roots of my mental illness’ screencap nd like #yeah. thats been me ever since i got home and i HATE IT but also i HAVE TO and like. i am fuck’ed up irreversably 🥴 and i need 2 make big de #decisions and b what ppl need me 2 b but i have Itchues and my brain isnt even fully formed yet and im punished buster. im fucking stupid 💔😌 #purrs