#i just want media thats so gut wrenchingly tragic and so full to the brim of beauty

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#ugh. i have such specific desires its impossible #like how am i supposed to find movies that r kinda pretentious and fucked up and sad with like layer upon layer of symbolism? like what is #that. just like best pretentious films??? #or like i want music thats like. ugh how do i describe. like mostly instrumental but with people talking #so it sounds like youre listening to old home videos. its sad and nostalgic #or i dont even kno how to describe it #just listen to zammuto. my dog's eyes or it can feel so good #songs that make me wanna weep bc theyre like so. so like grounding? like there r good things in the world. value the simple things #these r the children who havent yet lost their sense of wonder. makes me so sad and happy #ugh. i should just rewatch sunshine #i just want media thats so gut wrenchingly tragic and so full to the brim of beauty #is that so much to ask? is it #idk. i feel ill. probably lack of sleep #if u have movie recs id love to hear them #unrelated