#i just want to be good and ok and exist snd not be a burden but i can't

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I think I may be having a manic episode crash

#yippee #fuck this #m so tired snd i literally just got a new job and i immediately want to quit it #i think i applied then got the job peak mania #and now im just like oh yay #overstimulation constsntly #i love most of my coworkers but like i cant read some of them and its kinda super freaky #but also there are like management snd hiring practice things that seem super sketch #im just so conflicted because everyone is so happy for me but im so miserable again #i just want to be good and ok and exist snd not be a burden but i can't #i just want it all to go away #i wish i was nornal