#i keep going through therapists cuz i get my therapy for free from the university

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my hobbies include watching the sheer horror on new therapists' faces when i tell them about my childhood

#eliot posts #i keep going through therapists cuz i get my therapy for free from the university #and they started putting limits on how many therapy sessions you could get from the normal clinic #so i go to their other clinic that has like. grad students getting their first clinical experiences while being supervised by a real doctor #(through recordings and a 2 way mirror. i do not get to see the real doctor's face. it's odd.) #so i get a new one every semester or so as they complete their programs #so these are fresh faced newbies that i probably make question if they're REALLY uo for the job #i mean i HAVE been told i'm a good client very open about shit very willing to try things etc etc #but they do have to listen to an hour of Horrifying Shit That My Parents Should Be In Jail For #this new lady is nice though and she Gets my issues for the most part #my previous lady that i had for the summer kinda sucked. idk if she was bad at her job or just didn't click with me #but she always managed to zero in on shit that was Not The Main Issue #some therapists have this tendency to like. focus on the Standard Depression Shit and try to treat that #(sometimes even trying to treat depression symptoms that you don't even experience) #cuz that's what's in their wheelhouse #like i'll tell some long complex issue but briefly mention like ''i kinda wish i just didn't have to keep living through all this'' #and they hone in on that minor thing because suicidal thoughts is something they know how to handle #they don't know how to handle Whatever The Fuck I Got Goin On. no one really does. least of all myself. #mental illness mention #abuse mention in tags #suicide mention in tags