#i keep repeating the same recycled phrases because i dont want to disappoint people

[naughtyhawg]

i don’t even know what kind of art i make anymore

#ive kind of stopped creating so tangibly and so starkly that the thing i imagine making in my head have stopped coming #or they dont stay #just visit for awhile then leave #i feel an ambiguousness to my life right now where things dont feel put together but kind of bound in a way that keeps it all #but prevents movement #i want to organize mylife better but it always feels like a feat #that im not capable of on my own #its usually outside motivators that get things to change for me without my realizing #when i look at myself #i dont know what i do #i dont know where i want to be #i dont know why i create anymore and im having trouble getting back in touch with who i am #to make things #i keep repeating the same recycled phrases because i dont want to disappoint people #but i feel like my mind is making me the same person #i cant keep the change ive had in my head so it goes back to default #too long don look heehee #>.<