#i keep thinking about that tiktok audio thats like 'i want to be a msrshmalloe. i would just wobble round. with joy'

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Goodness gracious why can't my brain work properly

I have a list of tasks, important tasks, and ten days or less to finish them, but I'm kind of in denial about it, if that makes sense. I know that I have ten days, I recognize that, I know that ten days is not a lot of time, but in my mind it will always be ten days. Like it'll be the tenth day and I'll still be like "I have ten days." I'm just sitting on my bed watching Grey's Anatomy (very frustrating show) and thinking I have unlimited time when really the deadline is drawing very near, but I just can't get my ass out of bed. I can't do it. And I'm panicking because I know I only have ten days, but I also can't understand the concept of ten days. And I just need to finish my tasks, which aren't difficult tasks, but I can't do them. I get home like "I need to do laundry and dishes and finish this lesson plan" but my brain is like "I have ten days to do it, no worries." Yes worries! Yes worries, bitch! Please worry a little!! It's so easy, just put a little worry into it and we can complete these tasks

#i have a list of things i need to do #i need. to. do. them. #but work is exhausting. im on my seventh day in a row #so when i get home im like 'ill just lay down and watch one episode and then I'll get up and do things' #next thing i know people are cheating and dying and im crying and its 9pm #god i hate this show. yes i will continue watching it #ive gotta keep the momentum going. i need to go to the cafe today to finish some shit on my laptop #if i sit down im dead. but if i change right when i get home and head straight to the cafe before i have time to stop and think #then im good #why cant i properly function? #i need to just keep going. just keep going. if i start it'll be easier to keep going. i just need to start. thats the hard part #okay i got this. im gonna go home. get changed. grab my laptop. go to the cafe. once i get into the cafe im safe but i gotta get there #i can do this #just gotta get to the cafe #i love the vibes of it but the drinks leave something to be desired whoch makes me sad #theres another cafe i like with good drinks but i cant walk there #theres one really nesr my house so i like to go there #i usually get a nitro cold brew with two caramel shots which tastes kinda cursed but it helps me focus #i just have to get to the cafe #i keep thinking about that tiktok audio thats like 'i want to be a msrshmalloe. i would just wobble round. with joy' #paraphrased because theres a character limit but you know what im talking about #its a mood right now. i want to be a marshmallow. i would just. wobble round. with joy