#just gotta get to the cafe

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Goodness gracious why can't my brain work properly

I have a list of tasks, important tasks, and ten days or less to finish them, but I'm kind of in denial about it, if that makes sense. I know that I have ten days, I recognize that, I know that ten days is not a lot of time, but in my mind it will always be ten days. Like it'll be the tenth day and I'll still be like "I have ten days." I'm just sitting on my bed watching Grey's Anatomy (very frustrating show) and thinking I have unlimited time when really the deadline is drawing very near, but I just can't get my ass out of bed. I can't do it. And I'm panicking because I know I only have ten days, but I also can't understand the concept of ten days. And I just need to finish my tasks, which aren't difficult tasks, but I can't do them. I get home like "I need to do laundry and dishes and finish this lesson plan" but my brain is like "I have ten days to do it, no worries." Yes worries! Yes worries, bitch! Please worry a little!! It's so easy, just put a little worry into it and we can complete these tasks

#i have a list of things i need to do #i need. to. do. them. #but work is exhausting. im on my seventh day in a row #so when i get home im like 'ill just lay down and watch one episode and then I'll get up and do things' #next thing i know people are cheating and dying and im crying and its 9pm #god i hate this show. yes i will continue watching it #ive gotta keep the momentum going. i need to go to the cafe today to finish some shit on my laptop #if i sit down im dead. but if i change right when i get home and head straight to the cafe before i have time to stop and think #then im good #why cant i properly function? #i need to just keep going. just keep going. if i start it'll be easier to keep going. i just need to start. thats the hard part #okay i got this. im gonna go home. get changed. grab my laptop. go to the cafe. once i get into the cafe im safe but i gotta get there #i can do this #just gotta get to the cafe #i love the vibes of it but the drinks leave something to be desired whoch makes me sad #theres another cafe i like with good drinks but i cant walk there #theres one really nesr my house so i like to go there #i usually get a nitro cold brew with two caramel shots which tastes kinda cursed but it helps me focus #i just have to get to the cafe #i keep thinking about that tiktok audio thats like 'i want to be a msrshmalloe. i would just wobble round. with joy' #paraphrased because theres a character limit but you know what im talking about #its a mood right now. i want to be a marshmallow. i would just. wobble round. with joy

[black-and-yellow]

Wake up it's time for Hotel Dusk posting.

#hotel dusk room 215 #last window the secret of cape west #kyle hyde #louis denonno #LWDE (last window Denonno edition) #i've been thinking of the mental Last Window AU a lot. #I think either Dunning finally decides to fix up the hotel so it has to close for a while #or Louie just leaves of his own volition. or gets fired. whichever #either way he's gotta be out of there #obviously he knows where Kyle lives cause he has the guest logs #he turns up at his door like 'yo hyde guess who' and Kyle is like 'great' but lets him stay anyway because #why wouldn't you. it's louie #he crashes on the couch but he's pretty content there. #lends a hand at Lucky's Cafe mixing drinks. earns his keep #when he first arrives Tony asks him for money which starts them off on a bad foot #when Marie's ring goes missing and Tony gets blamed he's like 'no way. it's that shady guy who's staying with Hyde' #obviously Kyle is torn because he knows Louie has a history and Tony's not exactly honest #but he wants to believe he's innocent #drama !! #so yeah that's what I've been thinking about #guess who's listening to Romeo by Basement Jaxx again

[publicuniversalenemy]

it was gonna be a weird night regardless but hot damn. that was a Night for Sure

#basicaly i got tickets for a lil pre-halloween misfits tribute show bc yippe! fun yk? #as i dicovered a couple days after i made that purcahse #the venue was the fucking hard rock cafe #which couldnt be More Lame tbh but yk? #i already had the ticket and it would get me outta the house at least right? #so i was planning to have a silly lil tropical margarita just to make danzig roll in his future grave #but uhhhhh. plans Changed <3 #basically iiiii ended up drunksitting n drinking a mediocre strawberry lemonade instead #imm not gonna put all her shit Out Here on the internet even tho there is a less-than-zero percent chance that it could be connected to her #but yeah she now has the honor of being easily the most intoxicated (n still mostly conscious/functional) person ive ever been around #like hey it was nice to have a distraction from feeling Very Out Of Place #but i woulda Preferred that to not have stemmed from the 'oh holy shit this person is vulnerable i gotta Keep Them Safe' instinct #girl i hope you got home safe fr <3 #anwyas. i go sleep now bai!!! #whatever the fuck #alcohol /

[smithsparker]

guys i dont think this season is that good anymore actually sorry

#wtfock #what the actual fuck is going on <3 #so. your gfs best friend might have head trauma because you knocked her over after breaking into the cafe where she works. and you don't - #- want to be caught so you convince your gf to run away instead of HELPING HER FRIEND WHO IS INJURED #and also. your gf just knocked your best friend unconscious. she wants to run away and not help her. and you run away with her. #INSTEAD OF HELPING YOUR FRIEND #i mean maybe they wrap it up in a good way but what the fuck is gonna happen here im genuinely curious #considering this is skam. the secrets gotta get out at some point. so who is anaïs gonna choose #because this is pretty fucked up and all over some weed?? #the stupid fight earlier today was also so. ugh #sometimes i have to remind myself that these people are actually children lmao like yes that is how a 16yo would act #yes i know im only 2 years older. shush #anyway. i do not have a lot of faith but im interested to see what happens ig ??? #sas.txt

[carcarrot]

alright we're okay. it's all going to work out and happen. ive got my short film idea. i just have to make it absolutely perfect and then we're good to go

#my short film idea is a kinda sorta prequel kinda. to my Big Main Film Idea #essentially its just a little bit of silly backstory to a character that gets no backstory in the feature film #and this character is making a short film. and im playing the character. so im making a short film abt someone making a short film. #when i was first writing my Main Film Idea i was like ok yeah this character that im thinking of playing is obviously based on and like me #but as time went on i was like ah fuck. theres parts of me in every damn character #the good news is that this short film idea should be relatively cheap to make. im thinking of having only one filming location #and i could get a deal filming there bc i used to work there (my old cafe) so renting out the space might be cheaper #im not sure yet abt cameras. im thinking abt emailing my old film teacher and being like. hey. would you wanna help me make my film #i think he has some film cameras himself or if not he knows a lot of film people #but since this is essentially a one man (its me im the man) show i dont really need other actors. but im working on that #another problem of potentially many is that if and when this gets done. now what #ive got zero clue abt where to like. send my short film to be shown or whatever but maybe my film teacher could help w that! #before i do any of this i am going to finally finish that filmmaking course i bought. and then see where we go from there #but this still needs a lot of writing bc i havent done any screenplay work for this yet #and thus obviously havent storyboarded anything #i gotta get Organized <- least organized person on this earth #wish me luck that this will lead me on the path to my dream movie. we can all hope

[bunnybevvyy]

Yesterday, the vibes were immaculate almost everywhere we went.

#personal #i say almost because we stopped by the flea market yesterday & it is becoming more & more hateful with people selling trump merch & just #republican nonsense #but the cbd store the guy there with his wife were so kind i didn't even feel awkward talking to them #but also we went to the cafe to get coffee & everyone there was so nice & chill #we gotta go to the mexican flea market i bet the vibes there are better

[scalpelsister]

we are so back (< made four book requests at the library)

#why you may ask. when I struggle to read anything and hate leaving the house #well because i struggle to read things and hate leaving the house! I gotta go see the world and be around other humans and ready my silly #little books and support the local library #maybe even while im down town ill hit up the farmers market or get a smoothie at the gay cafe!! #ideally id make a habit of this and resocialize myself to the point of other humans not scaring the ever living shit out of me. #im seriously trying to buckle down and build a better life for myself. even if it kills me dfkshfks #and brother. the first step is a library trip to go read silly little books #ok maybe step one is making my bed and dusting but you get what im saying #i am calling on monday to see if i can get into group therapy bc theres no openings for one on one therapy and my psych things group might #do me a lot of good anyways. because i might meet other people Like Me and get a sense of like.... community idk #but im really excited just. in general about the things happening in my life and i really just want to slowly work on stuff #my post

[the-darkgod]

like, man i dont think im that bad at holding conversations or meeting people i just... dont know where people go out and do things and without Going Out And Doing Things i dont know how to meet people and like, dating apps seem to absolutely not be working for me in any sense and then its just like. man what am i going to do?? asdufhadjfaf

#alex speaks #im like. joining an in person lab later this year #and i rly rly want to force myself to start joining clubs i just. gotta get over the hurdle #like just random social events in seattle #theres a choir i wanna join #theres weekly board game nights at this cafe #but even things like that - everyone keeps going w a partner!! and like man!! #alsdkjfhasdfkladfajkhsdfjk #theres a queer craft club i should join bc i like to craft #i just also love being alone at home #i just ... ugh

[fingertipsmp3]

I have an absolute perfect storm of a shift coming up in April and I can’t decide whether I should cancel it

#i’ll set the scene for you: 9th april. easter sunday. the cafe is going to be absolutely Mental that day i just know it #i am on shift with: my manager (who’s lovely but she will be in the office all day doing managerial shit unless it gets so busy we literally #can’t cope); another new girl (who’s fairly nice); and my most hated coworker (who made me cry last week) #and to cap it off: i’m probably going to get my period that day!!!!! or maybe the day before which would be even worse since it’s a saturday #and i’m also working that day #why did i so cavalierly say ‘yeah weekends work really well; give me weekend shifts’ #i’ve gone ahead and figured out when all my future periods are and put a ‘DO NOT ACCEPT A SHIFT ON THIS DAY OR DAY BEFORE OR AFTER’ #on my calendar on the expected day 1 of my period #i just don’t know what to do. because what if i cancel it (offer up my shift in the rota app) and then my period is late anyway #i would feel so stupid. and if i get it on the saturday there’s not much point cancelling sunday because yeah day 2 is still bad #but if i survive a day 1 at work i can survive a day 2 #the demon on my shoulder is like ‘quit’ but i LIKE this job and more importantly i don’t want to go back to job hunting #i’ve spent the whole morning searching up like ‘how to survive your period at work’ and gotten Nothing Of Use lmao #it’s all aimed at people with desk jobs and girl if i was allowed to sit down that’d be like 90% of my problems gone immediately #should i just go on birth control. should i call the doctor while mabel has lunch and see if i can get in on friday #that might be the cheat code honestly. just straight up skip that period and get it the next week #BC does give me absolutely wild mood swings which is why i’m not on it but like.. surely there’s One out there that won’t mess me up #like i was on loestrin for about 4 years i think. rigevidon messed me up but surely it’s not the only one that’s appropriate for me?? #i’ll try to call them soon. gotta feed mabel first #personal

[lilac-fairygirl]

I'm going to college...getting my master's degree...then my PhD...then becoming a therapist...and paying off my debt...

So I can go back to Ireland because holy FCKKKKKK I have to go back

#its like my dream country #real life middle earth #not counting new zealand #just imagine it #taking day trips to dublin #going in free museums #drinking hot lattes #sitting in the courtyard of trinity college #reading in the little cafes #just walking those streets again #not to MENTION everything outside the city that i didnt get to see the first time #gotta go back gotta go back #dublin #ireland #trinity college #coffee #cafes #museums #travel #college #doctorage #life goals #ultimate dream

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Got stuffffff to do today... I don't want to

#my to-do list is a mile long #starting with: Laundry. Text Aspen (friend i made at camp and got their number but ive forgotten to text yet) #car payment. gift for a friend that shouldve been finished months ago. part of a passion project. repair tears in my jeans. #get insurance. pay bill. donate shit to goodwill. emissions test. and new social security card #it gets more and more adult-y as you go #i dont want to do any of it tho... not even the shit thats easy like sending a text or my passion project #BUT heres a hack: laundry is magical #for me at least #laundry has a time limit. like 30-60 minutes. so i drop off my laundry whoch is easy. go home. now i have a deadline #'how many of my tasks can i complete before the wash is done? how many dishes can i wash? how many lines can i write?' #shit like that. gotta create a deadline for mg brain and that helps it get stuff done #its hard to gather my laundry and drive myself to the laundromat tho... thats all thats holding me back #like thats literally it. i could finish half my list if i could just get my laundry going #bad brain bad brain bad brain #mental health problems require wack solutions #'need to do stuff? just do laundry! itll give you a deadline to do stuff!' wack #i am so tired #i should dye my hair again #EDIT: another hack (for me) is to drink coffee #i only drink coffee if I'm doing productive stuff. i drink coffee at the cafe where i do my work or i have a bottle of starbucks #so if i want to work i buy a starbucks glass bottle coffee #it tastes like productivity #idk drinking anything makes it a little more fun to work but sipping a coffee while tapping away at my laptop is a vibe and it works #just find what works for you i guess

[charmerquilled]

Man. Just 7 more days. And then I’ll be with Twinnie 😊

#&&. Just gotta get through the last five days which shall be... interesting to say the least #&&. I went to the cafe today to meet a former manager since he needs a commission done this week #&&. But found out that moments before I walked in #&&. the current manager flicked the crew off and raged quit #&&. So that was just special to learn 😬 #&&. I'm surprised but not surprised #&&. Sundays are the worst at breaking people over there #&&. TBD #&&. OOC. ( A mun who isn't as graceful as her muse )

[yhrite]

Do you ever see somebody that looks remarkably similar to yourself……. but you’re the gaudy randomly generated sims townie and they’re the townie after someone who actually knows what they’re doing has taken the wheel and yassified the hell out of them in create a sim…….

#just seen such a guy at the cafe #I gotta get on his level he was so pretty #can’t believe I was attracted to a man with baggy cargo pants #blah

[mountainsideturnip]

I'm in a doodly mood today. Send in some requests 👁️👁️

#I'm just chilling at T's Cafe and reading #I probably won't ink any doodles today tho. Will eventually #I am not immune to ppl asking me to draw things #I need to do panel redraws at some point #I *really* gotta get back into background work for Secret Projects

[aerachwrites]

Got my bestie an authentic LDR promo poster for Ocean Boulevard for Xmas I’m so happy

#I was so stressed nothing I found seemed good enough #now I just gotta get her favourite wine and a gift card for her local cafe #ldr

[ourlordapollo]

Been working from home for like a week and a half bc of some HVAC issue at the office and I can feel my sanity slipping through my fingers

#I GOTTA GET OUT OF HERE #even if i wanted to mask up and go to a cafe i couldnt bc i work in healthcare admin and that'd be compromising pt privacyyyy #would it be absolutely insane to just call out sick so i could to the beach or something bc. oh my god. im ginna chew my limbs iff #off #ive eaten so much fucking chocolate #delphi washington