#i mean if i didnt hed abuse me & my brother SO no choice i guess

[sweatermuppet]

ive been buying my mother, my father, & my brother groceries for months, even when i didn't live here i pitched in the funds (namely so my brother could eat), & last night it finally got thru to my father that ive been the one paying for it? like somehow i mentioned how much it cost & he was like wait u got this?? like yea dude ive been helping cover yr electric bill + hot water expenses too lmao

#its frustrating knowing he didnt even LISTEN when i told him MONTHS AGO that ive been helping #because that one fight we had..... he called me a lazy jobless piece of shit #& that specific week id also bought him take-out dinner #idk i just get so mad at him abt it. he never apologized after that fight either. #& here i am buying him pizza & burritos & popcorn #i mean if i didnt hed abuse me & my brother SO no choice i guess #when he thanks me it makes me angry too tho. like this ain't for u motherfucker this is for my kid-brother & no one else #i cater only to my dad as a way to avoid his wrath #same fight he called me disgusting + a f@ggit & i just stood there so silent & polite #im upset lol #OH & THAT WEEK... i also bought him an AC unit LMAO because i felt bad that he & ma had to sleep in 110 degree heat #god im gonna make myself cry im so angry #i do this all to be called son by someone who doesnt see me as their son