#i might fr be forced into recovery by embarrassment

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I don't necessarily regret telling a coworker I'm ana but I really wish he would mind his business sometimes

#like its my fault cause i asked him to remind me to eat but its getting embarrassing i have to be reminded #i dont think any of my other coworkers know or just are minding their own businesses but it embarrassing for someone to make you drink soda #like idk what the idea was i really just didnt want anything but its so werid for someone to be told one thing by me #(that i didnt want a drink) and for them to say another thing(to get me something to drink anyways) to a coworker that i dont think knows #i might fr be forced into recovery by embarrassment #also i think im in a minor depressive ep rn or something and i dont know if i still wanna recover cause it takes up so much energy #and i dont know if i really have it rn but i know i should so i probably force my self to recover & at least appear to not be totally sad r #i think he knew i would drink it because someone got it for me and i would feel bad if it went to waste :/