#i rlly do feel like i've fucked up every single friendship i've ever had so please for the love of god let me keep a relationship for once

[twoex2]

#i rlly do feel like i've fucked up every single friendship i've ever had so please for the love of god let me keep a relationship for once #genuinely sometimes i just lie in bed and think abt how i don't deserve him like he's way too good to me and i don't understand how #this is real #yeah idk maybe it's the religious trauma speaking but i rlly feel like he's too good to me #and i thought it was just the honeymoon phase but even after over half a year and even a few fights i still feel the same #everything i ever thought would last forever never did #and maybe it was all my fault (it was) but maybe just this time it'll be different and maybe my best will finally be good enough #.txt