#i think thats why it upset me so much when char told ash about evil megan bc it was the same minimisation shriyas behaviour got

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#i hate halloween with every fiber of my being and i wish there was a way to burn it off the face of the earth no trace left behind #i think i heard shriya when i went to get groceries earlier and it just brought all those halloweens back #i wish any of those cars had hit me back then i wish she succeeded #j was at her wedding the other week and i still feel so hollow about it #she knew she witnessed more than enough times and im still here unable to deal with anything #without blood in my mouth #i wonder who i would be if that didnt take up 10 years of my life #crouch speaks #i wonder who i wouldve been if i was allowed to leave if anyone noticed if anyone cared about it #i think thats why it upset me so much when char told ash about evil megan bc it was the same minimisation shriyas behaviour got #the same oh well i never saw any of the bruises the same im sure it wasnt that bad the same finding it funny my only worth was #acting as a punching bag