#i wanna burry myself in the dirt and be decomposed into mushrooms

[mitchievousness]

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#you know what that dot stands for friends #its time for a bit of irl anxiety word vomit #haaaaaaaaaaa #ok so hi hello im gonna go back to school sem after dropping out for like a year #and im currently in the process of transferring colleges and ohmygod this is just so anxiety inducing icb im actually doing this by myself #i feel so lost in the new campus and i dont know anyone here and theres so many people who are also doing their own things and idk its just #so overwhelming being in this crowd and Talking to people and having to act like im not on the verge of a mental breakdown most of the time #the worst part is that im gonna have to talk to the dean about my grades and why i basically ghosted my classes and i cant just say that #'oh yeah haha covid hit me hard with depression and my social capacity is basically only always at 10% im not actually stupid im just menta #lly ill haha' #djsjsjskdkdkajd #i wanna burry myself in the dirt and be decomposed into mushrooms #im so scared what if i dont get in im gonna have to be a dropout forever and like i know theres nothing wrong with that but its just the #Asian parents and social expectations and pressure of a 'successful adult' and im already like 2 years behind and i can Feel the disappoin #tment/surprise of everyone when i say oh no i havent graduated yet lol and im just so tired i feel like im about to cry #HHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #ok im done gonna go take the entrance exam now o7