#i wanna kill mysekf so bad I can’t take this pain

[sensitivegoblin]

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#I’m really tired of feeling alone… #i wanna kill mysekf so bad I can’t take this pain #i can feel my heart break shooting down my arm it hurts #i wish I could stab myself id rather feel physically pain than emotional #plus I can’t even cry cus my dad will get mad #I’m so fucking worthless how was I so blind #I’m not a princess I’m just a gross monster who can’t do antth right #my wrists ache from my fantasies about slitting them #I’m not allowed to express my emotions so to numbify myself I imagine killing my self over and over #that way I feel the pain of a knife instead of my heart #I’m never going to be loved. I’m going to die alone. :( #I’m going insane maybe I shouldn’t take my meds #why can’t I be in a movie???? why can’t I be the pretty sad protagonist that gets rescued????? #i need saving :( #fuck fuck fuck fuckkkkkkk my heart hurts so bad :((((((((((( #i can’t take this anymore I wanna die #i can’t even sh if I had the materials cus I’m stuck in bed behind dad #yeah I’m 23 sleeping in bed with my dad cus my life is really just that shitty