#i was daydreaming abt hot blonde january boyfriend of course

[aqenn]

if ur one of my cool friends dont read this lmao but

#(all of u r cool and i wouldn't post this on a public blog if i didnt want people to see it if ur reading this it's fine but anyway) #i was daydreaming abt hot blonde january boyfriend of course #and i just realized like. oh my god. if i had a boyfriend i wouldnt want him to see me nak*d #(like. for trans reasons) #hmmmm not good ! repress that #put that back in its box #idk i hate talking to people about stuff like this but also i have a compulsive need to share every thought I've ever had on the internet #so here we r lol #probably will delete this post l8er #just. yikes #my dysphoria has been bad all of a sudden i suppose this is the culmination of that #i '''didnt have dysphoria'''' before because i never thought about it #but my therapist was like 'maybe you should. think abt it. just a thought' and i was like hmmm interesting #so i did! and here we are. feels bad. idk why ms julie therapist did this to me but thanks i guess #appreciate it