#i was finished w one assignment earlier but i accidentally lost what i wrote oh well i'll just rewrite it later

[noxtivagus]

ain soph aur making me feel things i shld be asleep rn 😭😭

#🌙.rambles #[ gbf. ] #rather comforting that i'm once again. idk returning to this part of me? #like.. not embarrassed by it or wholly compelled to hide it #or maybe it's bcs it's 6 am rn n i'm very stressed bcs i have a bunch of assignments to do bcs the christmas break is soon and #i was finished w one assignment earlier but i accidentally lost what i wrote oh well i'll just rewrite it later #n then i'm just rambling n dumping here but . fiction #immersing in stories once more have made me. yk. live as i always have. full of love for whatever means a lot to me #particularly rn it's gbf #T_T #belial lucilius lucifer sandalphon vira nier anthuria #wait #my queue is so unfair rn ik i added these songs but. morning light hymnus then ain soph aur then another sky.. 💀 #I LOVE THE. YEARNING #THE LONGING???? IT'S SO PAINFUL N BITTERSWEET N I'VE ALWAYS LOVED IT #iirc two years ago when i listened to another sky n searched up the lyrics. vira rlly became one of my favs #when it comes to charas i like i realize tho that color scheme genuinely influences me so vira's not the type that i'd often talk about #but she's a very special character to me. #idk but.. characters like belial vira nier anthuria there's something i really like about them #i'd joke that it's bcs i'm a scorpio haha #WAIT I'M GETTING OFF-TOPIC #ain soph aur lyrics always hurts!! i love those two so much #what makes the sky blue.. ARGHHH PAIN. #honestly i cld never pick between lucifer/sandalphon or lucilius/belial. they're both so bittersweet in a way that appeals to me #yk i was reading some old stuff i wrote like. more than a year ago now n how tf did i write stuff so. damn. #the lyrics of nier's song r also so pretty. she's a bit of a dark character n she's. v sad #huh. thinking too of emet-selch ffxiv & haruka milgram n. all these characters r so similar in a way #i wonder if i like them bcs i relate to them. to have love returned. or i want to love them. to give as i am wont to do. perhaps both #yearning is so bittersweet but perhaps i'll just lose myself in fiction again. i have assignments to do anyways lmfao i #i won't let myself sleep until i've finished them all. oh but dw i'll just take care of myself after ig