#i was grinning like a fool up until hj did his solo dance

[tumsa]

on one hand, i am coughing so much it feels like there are glass shards in my throat, on the other hand, i just saw ateez on musik bank live, and it was everything i wanted and more. life really do be like that.

#we are on 5th week of me coughing and i am so tired #i am both actively dying and gaining years back #i was grinning like a fool up until hj did his solo dance #his outfit and the new purple hair and the night polish :((( #give me 1% of what he has pls #as for my cough the blood test so far is okay-ish #other than crp inflammation marker being high #which is expected #allergy tests will take some time but the main one is ok #so god knows what is this cough and fever for #my mom said i am allergic to my life and she was right