#i went to a v cathólic school

[ilhoonftw]

what would you do if your 3 best friends suddenly decided you're "too much" and suddenly refused to associate with you. and it was during school prayer trip. caused you to have a mental breakdown but laughed at you. and told the teachers you're simply acting crazy so you were excluded from bunch of fun activities everyone else took part in. then after we came back they told our mutual friends i "hurt them" and "refused to apologize even though it's all my doing". ofc my grades plummeted and it took me weeks to recover. later on one of them would send me long ass texts saying whatever happened i should be nice about it because it's not very cathólic of me to hold grudges. and year later during class christmas celebration two of them made a big fuss of approaching me to make amends. when i refused and said 'really?' they didn't budge and stood there acting nice, don't worry they didn't say sorry or anything like that. the texts person copied my idea of having a blogspot about my niche hobby but hers grew so big she started a youtube, has millions of subscribers, has nice image, wrote books. other one is an actress, the third one became a graphic designer in the usa. but all i got was trauma and failed life because i can't trust anyone anymore. years later everyone acts like i made this thing up and 'it wasn't that bad, i don't understand why you refuse to come to class reunions' oh btw they stopped inviting me

#prayer trips aka we went to some mountain town during lent #i went to a v cathólic school #tw bullying #tw trauma