#i will be honest i didnt think i reblogged alex very often

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I posted 3,054 times in 2022

That's 155 more posts than 2021!

635 posts created (21%)

2,419 posts reblogged (79%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@mr-iskender

wizardpotions

@chawarin-panich

@lelephantsnail

I tagged 2,821 of my posts in 2022

Only 8% of my posts had no tags

#pterodactyl screeching - 520 posts

#big dragon the series - 100 posts

#nani answers - 94 posts

#zeenunew - 90 posts

#the eclipse series - 72 posts

#cutie pie the series - 63 posts

#akkayan - 58 posts

#mangkornyai - 48 posts

#not me the series - 47 posts

#kinnporsche - 42 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#and maybe a lot of that has to do with ellie but gaon finds with yohan and ellie things he’s always missed in his relationship with soohyun

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

generally i am a huge advocate for shows having more light and i am full of gratitude to every giffer who has let me watch that akkayan kiss all brightened and colored beautifully

...but something about the darkness in that scene hits so different. It's so purposeful, the themes of shame, longing and rebellion that is harbored within that darkness.

Akk is finally letting something come out of himself that he has held back long before Ayan was even in the picture. This kiss is about Ayan and its about more than just Ayan. It's Akk - who's so good at holding himself back, so good at destroying himself for what he's been taught is justice and good morals - deciding that something else comes first.

And maybe Akk needed darkness and maybe he needed Ayan to close the gap, to desire him back first [for real]- but Akk shows none of Ayan's timidity or confusion during the kiss. He's known all along what he desires. He desires Ayan, of course he does, but he desires perhaps even more to be there for him and comfort him - Akk has always wanted to help Ayan and in his own way has done nothing but help him.

The way those first scenes in episode 6 used fire to show how Akk's love and compassion was destroying himself - and at the end its within darkness that those soft parts of him are born anew because often its within darkness that queer love is allowed to nurture and grow

207 notes - Posted September 20, 2022

#4

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235 notes - Posted November 5, 2022

#3

all jokes aside i have been incredibly impressed with the way the love scenes have gone in big dragon. Yes in the technical sense (aesthetics, editting, music) but especially in the narrative sense. The sex in big dragon pushes the narrative forward in quite big ways and reveals things about the characters. Which falls really well in line with the theme of BDSM, a lot of which is about trust and vulnerability. I'll be honest, I wasn't expecting Mangkorn to use the videos to lure Yai back to his house. And initially, I didn't really know what to think or feel about it. But damn if i don't feel sorry for Mangkorn in that moment.

Look at Yai, Mangkorn wants him to answer because Mangkorn wants him to accept it, but Mangkorn doesn't need Yai to answer to know that Yai likes him. And the fact that Yai doggedly refuses till the very end, that he chooses to walk away must have...hurt. The show has already established Mangkorn as someone who wouldn't violate consent, who wouldn't take it by coercion. The blowjob scene was played for jokes but this was its main purpose, to show that Mangkorn is playing around with him, but Mangkorn isn't trying to control him even though he very well could.

So the sheer amount of desperation in this had me lying on the floor.

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238 notes - Posted November 5, 2022

#2

wait a second lemme just-

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729 notes - Posted November 12, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

That feeling when you read a fanfic that’s just right, that’s just what you needed and your entire soul sort of just lights up with the possibilities and miracles the universe has to offer

4,169 notes - Posted August 18, 2022

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