#i will say the crew and cast r starting to post the petition so that’s encouraging

[iloveyoumorethansoup]

I have been Very online the since Thursdays cancellation and I am so tired but I feel like I can’t take a break even if I definitely deserve one

#yes I should take a break I am burnt out #got a lot of irl things I haven’t taken care of since moving back here that needs done I promised myself to a project with my cit as well #which. that is stressful and definitely Not helping. i have to call the job I want and I can’t stand phone calls #but like this. this has been my weekend entirely #and I’m more than happy to be here in any and every capacity #and I’ll be honest I’m having fun!! and the reason we’re doing so good is bc lots of people have been online all weekend #and I’m taking breaks throughout the day but every moment I’m gone I’m thinking about what I can be doing both on and offline #i feel good news in my soul today. it’s the first weekday after that weekend so someone’s probably gonna say something I’m hoping #idc if it’s leaked news official news but I really would like to hear something #I’m definitely confident being this online is helping for sure but by nature I am impatient and don’t work well without tangible results #and well. the impatience is setting in. and so is the lack of response #i will say the crew and cast r starting to post the petition so that’s encouraging #I’m so so bad at taking breaks. and I gotta take a break #but I haven’t really even been doing anything!! #ever since I got back here I’ve mostly been laying in bed! #i haven’t even unpacked yet (which is one of my stressful things) #and honestly! i don’t want to be here! i like this state fine. but living with my parents again is a nightmare after having so much peace #i need to unpack so I can repack that’s for sure lol #there r goals I can do when my parents r around and goals I cannot do when my parents r around #I’ve trained myself that when they’re out im working on what I can’t do with them around. doesn’t matter what time it is im working on it #and that mentality is Not Good. makes breaks impossible bc I should be doing things!! #projects and projects and im just sitting here exhausted #renewal news will fix me for sure. also reverse brain training where I make myself take breaks #im fine im just really tired. mostly of this house that’s haunted me for years #and unfortunately it makes pursuing personal goals very difficult and exhausting #i suppose I should remind myself im not helpful if I burn myself out. project: take a break #except. im not really burnt out of that. im frustrated that there’s no network response but that’s all of that #im burnt out of like. literally everything else. which is making things very annoying to do #soup talks