#i'm just dumping rn i really don't know what to say atp n that isn't rlly related but

[noxtivagus]

i feel better now THANK GOD

#🌙.vent #OHH I'LL REMOVE THE STUFF FROM MY RPEVIOUS POST BUT #HDFLAKSDJF I MANAGED TO COMFORT MY FRIEND A BIT. I THINK #i feel so bad tho bcs like genuinely at times i get like #i can't help it i rlly overthink n fall to doubt n #i'm so afraid that #am i like #too much or too little? #overwhelming or too distant #i'm really glad i managed to help though aaaa #but i think #helping others rlly puts me at ease.. #bcs i really care so much for all the ppl in my life #not sure how i cld help them. often i really get anxious when it comes to reaching out #something i realized over the years which i find rather peculiar is that i'm far more likely to #idk like #w friends that have no chance of being romantically attracted to me. i can easily be more affectionate #i don't know WHY but that thought just just dumped itself in my head or smth #bcs i am very naturally affectionate at heart i can't help it #i'm just dumping rn i really don't know what to say atp n that isn't rlly related but #there's just sm on my mind rn i need to write wtvr to keep me sane aaaa fdfhslkdafjklfajsdkfj #oh i really do end up unintentionally often restraining aspects of myself around others n i hate ittttt #like w some friends maybe i wldn't really talk about my interests? so they'll have more room to talk about their own #w some other friends maybe i'll tone down being affectionate bcs while i really am just naturally like that at heart i #i don't want them to like. be weirded out by me or smth????? #genuinely btw god i feel rlly bad at times bcs often i'm not rlly specifically high on energy or wtvr #i'm naturally a bit. slow ig. n sometimes i worry like what if i'm being too dry or too much of smth else or #NO I'M OVERTHINKING AGAIN anxiety ig bcs wdym it's 10pm ! endwalker's been out for nearly a year n novembers nearly over #TIME............ I'M GOING A BIT INSANE BUT OTHERWISE I'M DOING FINE I JUST NEED TO HOLD ON N DO WHATEVER IG???? #I AM. OVERWHELMED BUT I'M FINE this is a very weird overlap between being okay enough but also srs just being so overwhelmed i cant . oh my