#i'm so rusty and so excited and terrified this is an intimidating read

[psalmsofpsychosis]

The pros of reading a good book is knowledge, any kind of knowledge.

The cons of reading a good book is that i've been sitting in the corner of my bed crying for three days because a book about the structure of narrative has me questioning how i fundamentally experience my sexuality and also how the structure of 20/21th century psychology revolves around body over the mind rather than the other way around

#like the way Jane Alison's ''meander spiral explode'' is skinning me alive in 55 different directions #see a good foundational read always goes like that; it's so vehemently interconnected in core principles #that it accidentally –but not really– maps out your culinery practices and the worldviews of postmodern society #amd the structure of storytelling and our dog training practices #all at the same time #anyway i'm feeling challenged in a way i haven't felt #since the first time i picked up Jon Luckovich's studies on the human instinctual responses #and i'm sobbing ngl #i'm so rusty and so excited and terrified this is an intimidating read #aka what i live for really #i need more of these kinds of reads that have me questioning all the concepts i take for granted #i will not make it out of thos book alive and that is precisely what i need to start writing what actually matters to me