#i.e. killing my immune system and having me feeling like shit and messing up my sleep cycle as the cherry on top

[robinsnest2111]

...i think it's time to break out the big guns. as in listening to cam clarke's inside out album to try and force myself back to sleep orz

c'mon... three more hours of sleep... you can do it baby...

#total silence got me overthinking to hell and back... #conclusion tho: my brain demons have grown so powerful that they're causing physical symptoms #i.e. killing my immune system and having me feeling like shit and messing up my sleep cycle as the cherry on top #and it's all because now i am truly stuck living with my parents. no way out in this plague. and i DO NOT FEEL SAFE AND CAN NEVER RELAX #...actually this is exactly how shitty i've felt for most of my life. living here. only doing better when away with friends which was rare #...how do i break it to my parents that they're the reason i'm doing as bad as i am without them kicking me out for being disrespectful #like. if they could do less of the things they usually do and act different? idk. it's ridiculous... #if my aunt and uncle had a bigger apartment i'd seriously consider asking them for a place to crash for a while... #like in all seriousness i would be doing Way Better in this plague if i still had a place of my own. but i don't...