#id have to nuke my online presence that ive been building up ever since just to go anonymous again so yayy abusive family fun times

[dexaroth]

also ive been thinking. i always saw 'dex' as like a standalone nome and it only ocurred to me like recently-ish that it was the short version of dexter and idk its sort of growing on me. i kind of feel like a dexter. i think ppl irl would be like 'of course they have a weird name' whenever they saw me clumsily walking to my appointment n stuff. its also distinct enough to be easily recognized when im unfocused but has the drawback of being way further up alphabetically and such would force me to present those dumb college group projects earlier -_- ive had classes with a whopping 3 G names and even 2 ppl with the same name as me, sometimes that lead to there being so many ppl in front of me and the project needing at least 5 minutes to present that i got to do it on the next week just bcuz of name alone. im gonna miss that lol

also i have this fateful feeling that there will be a big potential of like. consequences to the name. i can imagine some ppl comparing me to the guy from dexter's laboratory but theres gotta be some more opportunities like that that i just cant conceive. ofc ive always had a name that has a big humiliating joke potential along the lines of having Dick as your first name but somehow i guess the school i was raised at or the ppl there just didnt do it to me or did it behind my back, i dunno. ive heard it from my mom but no one ever used it directly i was just constantly ridiculed by my weight instead by random 7yos which like yeah thats miles easier but itneresting i guess

#i was planning on having my irl be daniel and kinda still am but its a very common name. dexter though.. that ones special #fatphobia tw #< to counter these trigger memories i will instead remember dragging one of these little shits across the parking lot for bullying me #wish i still had balls like i had back then lol. even if most of the time i was just depressed i still had anger to push back sometimes 😔 #i also did try to search in websites for 'masculine names that start with d' but none appealed to me #maybe im just liking dexter bc every other name i know now is slightly worse and dexter just wins by comparison :p #realistically though i cant change my irl name to dexter bc then my relatives could finde the connection between that and my dexaroth alias #id have to nuke my online presence that ive been building up ever since just to go anonymous again so yayy abusive family fun times #um. anyways. dexter. cool name 👍 #actually id rather name myself just dex but 3 letter names are like impossible legally i think. itd introduce too many problems #imagine filling out your like bill forms and the name field requires at least 5 characters. id be fucked lmao #dextxt