#idk i feel like im nt allowed to complain about anything that bothers me

[neptunebeetle]

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#sorry ignore this #i rply wanna say somethng like ‘i wish u cared’ #in reply but she’d probabky just get mad or something #bc i seriously dougt she takes it seriously #i KNOW she thinks its a lazy excuse or doesnt care or ‘theres nothing she can do abut it’ #well heres the issue. one of your children is terrible at doing the dishes. the other is good at it but gets in ohysical pain from it #so how about! oh wow! get this concept! WORK HARDER TO MAKE IT A FAMILY EFFORT #DAMN. GOSH #Whats this? turning something caused by the family into a family effort instead of dumping it all on one kid? #thats beyond you apparently ! 😳 #okay again sure maybe im ungrateful idk #i get it some kids have to do the entire cleaning around their whole house #idk i feel like im nt allowed to complain about anything that bothers me #without disclaiming it like ‘i dont have it bad at all im just a whiny bitch i know’ #hecause maybe i dont REALLY have problems ive just been babied and everything seems like a Problem #im too sensitive and complain too much id die one day out on my own okay yes i get it #idk i suck bro! i really just suck! i suck! im awful! yes! okay #im trying to keep a number of how many days ive gone without hurting myself #to maybe motivate myself to not do it? but i find that i dont actually care #that shit doesnt work with me like my mom got me a toy to remind me to not hurt myself #and i ended up gong bacj to doing it anyway. guilt is not powerful enough. bo motivation can stop me from doing it #im not going to do it tonight im just highly considering it #the number’s only at 13 right now and im sure its not gonna matter the next time i have a mental breakdown :/