#idk im jst rlly tired. im so tired n my jaw is hurting again. i hav a headache.

[sadlazzle]

genuinely don’t know why i bothered coming home today. no one wants me here

#i am so very clearly in the way of their sunday but she won’t say anything #i don’t think her bf minds. i genuinely don’t think he cares that much. but i just know she does #i know she feels like she should be on her own with him today and im ruining it #i don’t feel welcome here #should’ve jst stayed at my dads ngl #i jst. i feel bad today n i jst wanted my own bed in my own home yk. #fuck that apparently. i’m gonna sit here for like an hour and then im leaving. i don’t feel like i should be here #is it even my own home ? she keeps feeling the need to make it perfectly clear that it’s HERS and HERS alone #doesn’t mean shit when she says with the sweet voice that it’s ‘my home too’ cause like. y don’t i feel like it is then. #y do i feel like u want me gone so badly #and y do u always to do that thing w ur voice tht makes it sound like im being nasty and unreasonable ?? #i don’t fuckin say enough to even BE those things #idk im jst rlly tired. im so tired n my jaw is hurting again. i hav a headache. #i cant even make myself anything 2 eat bc the kitchen is occupied n i don’t wanna seem rude #i just don’t know any more. im so out of it n confused idk what anything is or what it means anymore #plum.txt