#idk mlm nblm love pining yearning ETC ETC!!!!

[stars-in-our-skies]

thoughts of a boyfriend who visits me or even lives with me, cuddling and watching movies together, sharing domestic life and cooking dinner with them, introducing and showing them off to my family -- not out of a desire for any sort of approval, but out of pride for loving and knowing them -- taking them to all of the places i love, enjoying each other's company even when we aren't doing anything, sharing a bed... maybe i am a hopeless romantic

#nblm post #mlm pining #idk mlm nblm love pining yearning ETC ETC!!!! #ok but anyway #thoughts and prayers that i meet a cute boy this weekend at the convention #and that he lives within driving distance so he can visit me during the summer #and maybe we have a cheesy teenage romance that neither of us have ever had the opportunity to experience before #and we hang out at skate parks while i learn to rollerskate #and maybe he skates or maybe he just watches me and writes poetry #or maybe we have a picnic in the shade together #complete with our switches so we can play AC or whatever's on the switch these days idk #and at night we share my full-size bed #and i worry that i'll never be able to let someone into my bed but somehow it just feels complete with him there #and he protests to the plushies but i tell him that The Plushies Are STAYING #but maybe now that he's here i don't need most of them to hold me at night #and he smiles a little bit knowing that i don't lie alone in agony anymore #and he holds me and runs his fingers through my hair and kisses my head #and i for once feel like i can let my guard down around someone #and he's here and i can protect him and he can protect me #i finally feel like someone understands my soul #irregardless of any personal issues we might have #we are two souls who found each other in the sea of fire and flame #and there isn't a tomorrow or a yesterday to worry about #only the right now. only this love. only this one summer night. #GOD can you tell i'm starved for affection #sooo anyone going to an!me oh!o or what #indieposting #yearnposting