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alazyparallelworld · 1 year

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heh im doing some middle of the night oversharing too i guess- i did mean i wishes for myself to ramble more, its cool to create a catalogue of myself in a public diary format, but i struggle to do it when it doesnt feel like people are "seeing" me or are at least interested, so i only do it to a really tiny audience on a secret blog... not exacty the same. so i think its interesting to see people so it a different way and being more open. though it would also be nice to see more pepple ramble/do it more often because then i can connect with them more

also... I've thought about downloading said diary blog so there is a record of it, and i hope i remember to do it before tumblr becomes obsolete. but youre right that a lot of it is in the moment especially the actual interaction part of putting yourself out in public

hahhhh, and how keen of our differences. i miss being shadowbanned for some select key features - i wasn't appearing in anyone's notifications, i was totally unsearchable and i Especially liked that for tumblr-native searching, etc. i'd trade my minute audience with you, in a heartbeat.

(don't worry, you're fine... idk how familiar you are with, The Lore, but i am haunted by 'gossipy' sort of outsiders. neutral-positive interaction is fine.)

Now. 'Audience'.

preliminary: I am not suggesting that you're here for advice, I have 'midwest polite' where I incline towards suggestions... to which, I have, none. I don't know why I have a magnetic pull. '200 people' has always been my balking point, one I've hit numerous times, over an array of social media sites, fandoms. Apparently... I am charming... and despite my best efforts to hide under a rock, without fail, someone lifts it up. Uncountable how many times have I've changed houses (DRYLY)

for content creation, the practical suggestion is to, 'keep at it! Eventually SOMEONE will notice you...!' but we're talking about, circulation of the self. "I want people to listen by my talk of, breakfast. What I ate, how it tasted. I want someone to notice my subconscious neurotic tics. What I say, how I say it."

can you art a person? Become someone appealing - a Casanova in a social web - and should you...? Happiness will be found upon reception, you're sure. But how do you attain that status? Is the journey worth the destination?

I cannot speak for you, nor do I wish to. I am quite happy that you're here at all - although you describe it as 'oversharing,' which implies unpleasantness. To me this is a simple back-n-forth engagement. This isn't a burden; hell, it's more likely I am weighing on you with either deadringer observations or total bombs. Of course, I won't forget the inverse; you could mean it as the unpleasantness of revelation... but, these are all semantics for the same answer. "It's fine. Really."

Total clarity: I am not trying to eek self-identity out of you. "What do I want?" I'm extrapolating. If it's disturbing, I can understand, and vice-versa if you find it pulls your heartstrings I understand that too. Regardless, you're free to be here. If the talks are continuous, I may make a specific tag - at the moment I'd like to keep you as anonymous due to. Uhm. The irritated Psychosis ordeal, which is entirely my fault, it is a safety measure towards you.

Anyways. Err. (scratches cheek) Considering how vine-spread that whole monologue was, I'll pause there. Feel free to respond, clarify, or dispel.

(nod, nods) ...permanent residences... given how Twitter has kept on with an emptied gas tank, I would archive steadily versus a rush. You can window-shop in the medium; in the event of an apocalypse, you can have a prepped vacation house.

#i ramble ★#talk tag

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