#idk why they stopped refilling my meds....they gave me meds for it. it didnt stop it but it helped

[quaranmine]

literally i am so sick of acne set me free from this hell already please why do i have to live in constant pain

#i feel like it's unfair that i didnt even get it til i was 18 #like hello i am ADULT now why did i just get it then and not when i was in middle school or high school??? #anyway fortunately my face is normally clear IT'S JUST MY BACK. IS SO AWFUL. AND IT ALWAYS HURTS #i get it so regularly where even just fabric touching it hurts :(((( and it's near constant #i need to go to the dermatologist again #idk why they stopped refilling my meds....they gave me meds for it. it didnt stop it but it helped #anyway guess who cant use accutane or anything like that cause she has IBD???? me. #anyway i do often breakout around my mouth/chin #but i believe that is from my pillow case so i try to change the case every other day #which i havent done lately so that's on me tbh #it also doesnt help with my imposter syndrom re:work because whenever i do have visible acne i feel sooooooo much younger than my coworkers #this is all in my head but i feel like people might take me less seriously if i have acne on my face since it makes me look even younger #anyway. i have sort of accepted my fate that my back and shoulders are all scarred and messed up now #so i try not to dwell on it when it comes to bathing suits or other things that would show it #cause if i dwell on it it might make me subconscious but if i DONT think about it then i am fine and not insecure LOL #i just wish it would stop hurting.......