#idk. like. we've already established doing studies kinda makes my work stiffer

[skunkes]

in a weird position where i threaten to quit art to myself every other week, but I could never do that. I'd always come back to it.

There's nothing else on this earth I'm capable of doing, why not continue it even if its bad. But it also feels weird, bc I'm doing it bc my body seems to need to, while knowing that I'll never be happy with it and that I'll never really learn what I need to learn to be happy with it. Knowing that I have no way to Learn bc its not something that can actually be learned. Im just missing what everyone else seems to have

#talkys #rollercoaster of emotions in todays posts sorry #idk. like. we've already established doing studies kinda makes my work stiffer #i only learn from copying bc i have no insps. and nobodys making the art i wanna make #but like. i dont even know what i want my art to look like which makes it harder #i draw and im like eugh these proportions are TOO realistic but these are TOO cartoony #/brain telling me the more cartoony ones are incorrect. and finally me not being able to tell what even looks good #bc it all looks bad. idk why. bc i cant find that blend. it just all looks bad. #it looks like misinformed art. like That Infamous Artist. #idk what i want it to look like all i know is it looks bad #how do you even fix that. what studies could i possibly do #especially when i dont even have a reason to draw lol....idk. idk. sucks. #long post