#idk. thinking abt the future makes me soooooo nervous im not even kidding. i hate it

[minglana]

feel like throwing up just by thinking of the concept that tomorrow i have to choose an erasmus destination honestly

#i dont think im ready to go to germany.... i dont have any type of language certification... #and apparently they dont rly go easy on u at all. like they dont care that youre a foreign student they treat u like any other student #and idk same w vienna i think. plus its more expensive. idk. OH OH and i havent even told my parents. #this time fr i wasnt trying to hide anything from them i just. completely forgot😭so i have to call them today and tell them #and maybe theyll be able to help some. another option is staying here or go to a flat next yr. idk i have some moments where i rly wanna le #leave. and other times i feel like i need a 180º in life yknow #idk. thinking abt the future makes me soooooo nervous im not even kidding. i hate it #z xarre