#if I don’t have a proper career then I’ll b fkn miserable lol

[sakhafa]

it’s so wild to write a journal entry ab how ur spiraling and don’t know what ur doing in life and then read the last journal entry u wrote and it’s all ab how ur grateful and full of hope and what not

#I’m trying to be all ‘yea all of my grad school applications turning to shit is a sign to go back to plan med school’ #but like I cannot be delusional…dua and manifesting don’t work if I don’t put in the work #but I just already feel so drained and burnt out before anything is starting? #my journal entry from last month was ab how I was excited for what’s to come and ofc I didn’t expect this and it’s just so…tiring rly #if I don’t have a proper career then I’ll b fkn miserable lol #it’s just. things make no sense but at the same time they do but at the same time they don’t. i just feel so lost #may Allah guide me fr bc idfk what is going on