#im almost out of the peppermints i use as smooth muscle relaxers to keep from choking so im trying to make them last

[stirdrawsandreblaws]

jackhammer esophagus is a fucking plague upon my existence

#i love food. but sometimes eating it makes me choke and experience intense chest pain. #this on top of a fuckton of weird food allergies (garlic and tomatoes and bananas and mushrooms and the list goes on) #so making food to eat is Difficult on several levels that im just not able to overcome when hungry #and god am i hungry...fate is such a bitch sometimes. i starved as a kid bc we were so poor. and all ive ever wanted was stable food access #and now that i basically have that. im allergic to half of it and choke on the rest. #stirring up trouble #i didnt eat anything today yet and idk when i will. if i will. cant bring myself to cook bc what if i cant eat it? ffs... #im almost out of the peppermints i use as smooth muscle relaxers to keep from choking so im trying to make them last #which apparently means eating as little as possible...ah well at least i ate well yesterday #long as i keep drinking water i can make it probably another two days without food before i get sick-sick...