#im gonna foil some tomorrow i guess whatever

[plantanarchy]

Ranunculus is ruining my life right now because I keep walking around going agh ack look at her ack agh ah

#and idk why but no one is buying them? i think because i am not dressing them up enough #and people don't know what they are #im gonna foil some tomorrow i guess whatever #greenhouse content

[uniformbravo]

so

today was my special oc day, right, may 16th and everything, and i have that whole yearly silan portrait deal going on

except this could not be a more academically inconvenient time for may 16th to happen lmao i have like a thousand school things going on and any reasonable person would be like “well guess i’ll just have to postpone the festivities in the interest of prioritizing my schoolwork” but Fuck it am i Right

art project that im around 70% done with due tomorrow

museum paper i’ve barely started planning for due thursday

history essay i half-read the prompt for also due thursday

apparently registration for next semester started this week, they don’t usually do it this early & it’s fucking me up

my art teacher approached me about some student art show they’re having on campus asking if i wanted to submit anything & i said i’ll think about it; that deadline is sometime during this week, no idea which day, can’t be bothered to check (could’ve been today tbh)

literally Everything is happening this week and i absolutely should be devoting every waking moment to trying to keep up with it all but instead i went “nope i’m taking the day off it’s Silan Day i need to draw my son” (tho to be fair i did spend the 2 hours between classes today working on the art project so that’s something at least)

also yea um just the fact that i even had classes today?? i’m kind of baffled that this is the first time this has happened tbh bc i started this yearly portrait-drawing tradition in 2014 and i’ve been in school all that time so why don’t i remember being this busy all those other times, i literally lost half of my day today attending class and didn’t start on the actual drawing until like 4 pm (it’s supposed to be like an all-day thing)

aaaanyway i did not manage to finish the portrait today (i wasn’t expecting to) but i got a good start on it and i like where it’s going, enough to be interested in picking it up again later so that’s good?? i’m gonna be semi-responsible and spend the next 2-3 days getting all my schoolwork done lol

because ok i’m not 100% irresponsible alright!! i know i made it seem that way but i didn’t just carelessly throw all my homework out the window so i could draw my ocs all day, i knew beforehand that this week was going to be a shit show! my Actual Plan was to get all or at least the majority of these assignments done over this past weekend, but it turned out to be a Big depression weekend and i couldn’t even bring myself to Think about homework, not even the art hw, so the only thing i managed to finish was this little reading response for art history, which i only did yesterday after the weekend was technically over

so yea h idk my plans kind of fell through bc of that disaster, but i still consider today’s actions justified ok:

since im getting p close to finishing the art project i can probably just finish it in class tomorrow & it’ll be fine, like it’s due at the beginning of class but i’m sure if i give it in before i leave it’ll count

i will devote literally all of tomorrow to completing the museum paper, i wrote another one exactly like it last semester for the same teacher so i know exactly what to do and it should be fairly easy I Got This

history teacher is extremely lenient with late work, last essay i busted my ass to get it done in time and then the next day he was like “ya if u don’t have it today just get it to me whenever u can it’s fine” so i will pray 2 the Lord that he says those same exact words thursday morning and i will have all weekend to write the fuckening thing (*also prays that The Depression won’t foil my plans this time*)

and then registration & the art show are fuckin Whatever, super far down on my priority list i Guess (aka no capacity 2 deal with more things rn lol!)

after all those things are handled i will finally let myself get back to the silan portrait, my son, my charming boy, im so proud of him, tearing apart my life in this crucial time to give him life what a treasure

anyway it’s 2am goodnight

#retag later #talkin bout stuff #school / #ok i didn't even talk about the difficulties i was having with this shit portrait in the first place #it took me like 4 hrs to get into the drawing groove so i basically hated the drawing for the first 4 hrs i was on/off working on it #then photoshop & my tablet were like teaming up against me to give me these weird & annoying errors/glitches i've never had before #& then my laptop randomly shut off (2nd time in the last month or so) while i was working?? #thankfully i save often and didn't really lose anything (i lost some shit i already hated and probably would've erased anyway) #and the computer restart fixed the other issues i was having w/ ps & my tablet so win/win i guess? #but still like jesus christ i think...... somehow..... the universe was trying to teach me a lesson abt neglecting my 75 hw assignments..... #just maybe..............