a love like war | part one
Sequel to The Other SideÂ
Pairing: Negan x Reader
Pronouns: She/her
Warnings: Language, Violence
Summary:Â Despite your best efforts you just cant seem to avoid Negan
A/N: SHES HERE. IM EXCITED <3 Again all the thanks goes to @jinxeeeââ <3
Tags: @aubageddon91
âYou belong to meâ he whispered, catching you off guard and it showed âyou always willâ he added before you stepped away from the man, the confused look creasing your soft face as you reached for the door.
âGo to hellâ you snapped before leaving the room, once you were outside you pressed yourself against the brick wall to catch your breath
You avoided the gardens like the plague after your interaction with Negan and it brought up some questions with Daryl, heâd grill you day after day, asking what was wrong until you had enough and told him everything. At first he was taken back by the assumption you and he were somewhat an item but he soon channelled that into anger, he hated the idea of you and Negan. Heâd tell you, you deserved so much better than him and of course youâd agree. After that day, he promised to stay by you whenever you went out to the gardens so that Negan couldnât corner you, and he thought he could get some revenge of his own by purposely flirting with you whenever the prisoner was watching. Of course his flirting was much more subtle than what you usually encountered, heâd pick you a fresh strawberry and tuck your hair behind your ear every so often but mostly he made you laugh to the point youâd forget that any one could be watching. Youâd scold him when youâd get home at night but youâd never tell him you enjoyed knowing Negan would think of nothing else in his cell at night.
You felt confident walking through the gardens on your own today, you did your job checking up on people as you inspected the quality of the crops all while your face flushed red, attempting to avoid Neganâs stare. You left his section until last, thinking you could quickly get it done and leave before he had a chance to say anything to you but of course, that was too good to be true. Brandon stood over Negan as you approached but quickly dropped his weapon to his side as you did, he looked eager to ask you something âIm really sorry Y/N but I ainât feeling all too good and there aint no one else I can ask'' You took a deep breath anticipating his question âDo you mind taking watch while I visit the doctor?â you cleared your throat before taking the spear he held in his hand from him, sending him a small smile and a nod.
âSureâ you watched as he hurried along to the infirmary, your heart dropping once you noticed you were now alone with the one man you didnât want to be alone with.
You looked down at the man who was already staring back up at you with a wide smile, you rolled your eyes and turned your attention back to the rest of the garden. âYou know when I first saw you sat on that rock, covered in all that shitâ he started, pulling at weeds from the ground before turning slightly to face you âI still though, my god is she beautifulâ his tone made you snap back to his direction, scoffing at his words
âDid you think I was beautiful when you locked me up in your little torture chamber?â you spat back at the man, he held his hands up defensively, his smirk seemingly disappearing.
âI never apologised for thatâ his tone was much softer now but you still shook your head at him
âItâs a little late for apologies now, Negan,â the man sighed at your truth, and turned back to the weeds, pulling at the leaves while biting down on his bottom lip.
âI am. Sorry that is. If I had known- I canât help but think how different everything would beâ he sounded defeated which pulled at your heart a little until you realise who you were talking to.
âItâs gonna take more than a meaningless apology for me to forgive youâ you didnât mean for it to come out as a hiss but it did. Your eyes now scanning the area to track down someone to take over for you, Negan surprisingly stayed quiet as you did just that. You signalled for someone to come over before you looked back down at Negan. âI donât think Iâll ever forgive you for what you did to meâ you whispered before handing the spear to the man who saved you from Negan duty.
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The next day you gathered before the council, you stood by Daryl as you listened to Gabriel explain a situation with a hoard of walkers and his plan for getting rid/diverting it. He put together some teams of people and explained their jobs, Daryl and Michonne were to take down any walker that strayed from the path and Aaron, Eugene and Rosita were to divert the crowd into the next town and attempt to trap them there. You embraced Michonne and Daryl as they left the room, wishing them luck and warning them to be safe, just as you were about to leave Gabriel called on you to stay behind for a moment.
You waited behind like he had asked, waving goodbye as people passed you. âThank you for waitingâ Now that the room had cleared, Gabriel took a few steps closer to you, you flashed him a smile and perched yourself on a desk that stood behind you.
âWhat can I do for you?â you questioned, oblivious to his intentions. He gave you a warm smile as he paced before you
âI want you out there too. I havenât forgot that you were one of the best back at the sanctuary and think its time we put our skills to good use!â you couldnât disagree with him, you pushed your lips together as you nodded at his words, waiting for further instructions. âI want you â I want you to go out there and keep the walkers on the right pathâ you cocked a brow at the man, you figured Daryl and Michonne already had that covered but he seemed convinced they may need extra help. âI also would like for you to take Negan with youâ
You wondered if you had heard him correctly as you pushed yourself away from the desk âI'm sorry? You want me to take who?â You scoffed at the man when he repeated the prisoners name, shaking your head at his suggestion. âThe man who left me in a room to die, that Negan?â your words tasted a little salty as you questioned the priest, his head hung low as he took a deep breath.
âI see how he acts when youâre around. I have faith he will keep you safe!â you rolled your eyes at his words, chewing on the corner of your mouth as you thought of all the possibilities of being left alone out there with Negan âHeâs a good fighter, we need that!â He added, walking closer to you before placing a hand on your shoulder, you avoided his stare as you looked down at your feet. âWe canât let anything bad happen to you but Negan? Heâs a life Iâm willing to risk for the safety of the communityâ Eventually he broke you down enough to get you to agree with his ridiculous plan. Before you even left the gates, you warned Negan not to speak a word to you, threatening his life if he even breathed in your direction and off you went, leading the man to your station.
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Negan seemed to keep to his promise and not a word was spoken during your time travelling, when you reached your spot there were already a couple of stray walkers roaming around. Reluctantly you handed Negan a knife and watched him run off to kill the walkers, you offered no help as you stood back and watched him take down each walker, he barely had time to rest when the next set came limping over to him. You decided to sit down in the grass, drinking out of your canteen ignoring his struggles. By this point he must have killed over 20 of those things, he was panting and sweating yet you did nothing to resolve his exhaustion. It felt like it was the perfect display of karma, like the world had finally given you what you had been asking for, for years. The walkie on your hip started to buzz before Rositaâs voice spilled through the speakers notifying you that their plan worked and they would see you all back at Alexandria, Michonneâs was next claiming that she and Daryl didnât have a lot of strays and they were ready to head home. You thought it was best you didnât reply, none of them actually knew you were out there and you didnât want them to panic.
You looked up at Negan, he had a couple walkers on him but you figured after they had gone, youâd be fine to head home too. You picked yourself up and brushed off any dirt that may have collected over time and turned on your heels to get the car started. What you didnât expect was the dead that seemed right on your tail, You grappled with the creature before it took you down. You managed to keep it at arms length but you knew if you reached for your knife it would get you, you called out for help as you struggled to hold its weight. It felt like you were under the dead for a while, the feeling far too familiar as it snapped its jaws at you, suddenly the snapping stopped and the body became limp over the top of you, allowing you to throw it off to the side.
A hand reached out for you to grab and you did, a little too hazy to realise whoâs hand it was. Once you were on your feet, your gaze met Neganâs and you allowed a small sigh to pass your lips âThanksâ you whispered, brushing off your clothes âyou know if youâd have left me to die, youâd be free right nowâ you added, disguising your grateful words.
âNa, wouldn't be worth itâ you cocked your brow at the man now you had finished cleaning your clothes, he shrugged at you a small smirk gracing his features, his tongue caressing his bottom lip. âthe five minutes a day I get to see you, is worth way more than freedomâ
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