#in one hand i am as always thinking abt thara

[soldier-poet-king]

Yes i did finish the grief of stones audiobook on my morning commute. No this is unrelated.

#in one hand i am as always thinking abt thara #in another hand. tmg never quite free moment #in a third hand i have been thinking abt astarion specifically in terms of autonomy and the perception of control in trauma survivors #abd the ideas of personhood and autonomy and the insidious nature of familial bullshit that makes you a creature you cannot escape #in ALL hands i am always thinking abt cycles of trauma and burdens of grief. and just. idk man #idk what to do with all this #i cant just put it down. its me. so much of myself is this. yknow??? #gah #the duality of fran #i am going home to listen to tmg and start priming my ugly furniture #tmrw i agreed to do a volunteering redacted thing. after that. go get paint in bight colours #and bg3 with rose and j in the evening possibly #truly just. not beating the melancholic disposition prone to despair accusations