#is it a coincidence that the hours I’ve spent poking and prodding at a memory that comes in flashes but mostly numbing Lu faint unreal

[stemroses]

Human brain is crazy man

Emotions are stupid

Memories aren’t exactly gone but they might as well be.

#is it a coincidence that the hours I’ve spent poking and prodding at a memory that comes in flashes but mostly numbing Lu faint unreal #that my body decided it’s the perfect time to shed the remainder of my lining causing cramps and the more I try to write down the facts not #my emotions the more my stomach hurts and nauseated and progressively makes the cramps worse #it’s a sign besties. body saying “girl what you talking about that never happened now stop fucking around before you find out” #anyway I’m hungry but I’m afraid it might come back up #also that at this rate I’m going to be sick. but like a stress sick #you know like when you get high temperature and clammy skin and like nasal discharge #and body is like “oh shit homie? there’s something here? gotcha” and you’re like “no silly goose it’s just the brain calm down”