#it is literally all blank. theres nothing there. between like may and july i have nothing

[bitegore]

i really did lose my childhood to the american public school system huh

#i cant remember it. i literally cannot remember massive chunks of my life because school stresses me out and i stop remembering things if i #reach like a certain threshold of stress #like literally i can remember the june/end of years of like fourth fifth and sixth grade and after that i Can't #it is literally all blank. theres nothing there. between like may and july i have nothing #i also cant remember most decembers after middle school and there are massive sections of months i just dont have #the fact that the bulk of my childhood memories are from july to august is fucking insane #i have eight months' worth of memories for four fucking years #red rambles #edit: like i have mental illness too but i didnt lose anything to that. literally the mental illness is just What I Am #i am Like That. its fine. i dont mind. but school makes me suicidal. that isnt normal