#it was an absolute mindfuck for other reasons (my poor judgement and thinking i could fix them only for them to make me worse)

[aromantic-diaries]

The absolute horror of someone being in love with me is truly a nightmare. It's only happened twice because I'm a complete weirdo in the least endearing way possible and I am not attractive at all because I put no effort into my appearance. But still it is horrific

#personal ramblings #first time was when i was like 7 or 8 and had a friend who had a crush on me. i knew. everyone knew. i did not acknowledge it #again we were like 7 so nothing really happened. we stopped being friends due to unrelated reasons and then he bullied me later on #now the second one is one big rancid can of worms #it was an online friendship that i got out of not long ago #it was an absolute mindfuck for other reasons (my poor judgement and thinking i could fix them only for them to make me worse) #well they caught feelings and i didn't know i was aro back then but i was in a relationship and well they did not take no that easily #but let's not air someone else's dirty laundry #there is a lesson to be learned and it's that i am not a therapist