#it was worth it. so when another person sees the catharisis there. it makes it seem possible.

[notthestarwar]

are you normal or do you print out your ao3 comments and make them in to a little book so you can look at them all together when ur feeling sad

#can neither confirm nor deny if this book exists #but i will say: it sure is nice to look at when i'm having a 'what even is the point' kinda day #you know that post that talks about how you should look at ao3 interactions like you're doing a little book reading #i think about that a lot #cause yeah i write for me but if i didnt know ppl were reading stuff i probably wouldnt bother posting #and going to the effort of making it understandable to a brain other than mine if i didnt think other ppl got anything from it #but getting a comment really is like 'oh my god there really is a person out there reading this' #and when they mention they agree with a certain take. then i'm like. omg. this feels like community you know #whats that one post thats like 'people arent looking for commnents. they are looking for community' #theyre right. #its easy to get caught up in stats and be like 'oh this is barely any ppl' especially if you start comparing (thats the mind killer) #but the truth is. the comments that i do get? thats like a ginormous amount of ppl #if they were all looking at me in a coffee shop. i dont know if i'd be able to do a reading lol. i'd get stage fright #not of the stuff that ends up on ao3 anyway. it's not stuff i'd ever put somewhere non anonymously. cause its all like #showing a bit more of me than i'd show in a coffee shop you know. thats me working through stuff. but still ppl are interacting! #that feels big. #i think cause a lot of my stuff is like 'heres a irl problem made worse so its brought to the forefront and has to be addressed' #which means its all pretty depressing but in a way i find cathartic. you know. its a tragedy but their story was worth telling. #it was worth it. so when another person sees the catharisis there. it makes it seem possible. #its not just wishful thinking. working through that issue would be hard and painful. but it would be worth it all the same. that guy agrees