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#it would be so easy to beat myself up because im not up to par
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#every once in a while it kind of dawns on me that im not that good at the things i take pride in
#and trying to stay proud becomes like running on shaky legs
#in the sense that i will try because giving up would be admiting defeat
#but all i can think about is stopping to get relief
#it would be so easy to beat myself up because im not up to par
#there's shame in movement and shame in wanting to admit to myself that maybe im not cut out for these things
#but how could i dare think of stopping when everyone i look up to has gone through the same pain as me?
#i dont want to think of myself as weak minded
#so i keep at it
#and i do my best to forget how easy it was not to be seen and compared
#and i try to forget how much easier it was to see no one other than myself
#because the smallness of that world was the biggest blow i ever dealt to myself and the biggest weakness i let grow
#and maybe my biggest pride in the end is the care i put into not making the same mistakes again
#so in the end it's a matter or remembering that im enduring a smaller pain to avoid a greater one
#anyway im actually doing fine im just...
#feeling a little introspective?
#big scares tend to amplify that
#i might delete this later after ive slept
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