#it’s even dumber of me to be so emotional and potentially jerky abt something that isn’t even real

[sickgraymeat]

when we agree on smth for once 😩

#I can never actually talk to ppl abt fandom which is very lonely bc like how else would I talk to people #but it’s highkey better for me to be very lonely than to just act like a jerk so y’know #fandom as a microcosm for all relationships obviously but #it’s even dumber of me to be so emotional and potentially jerky abt something that isn’t even real #and also fandom is a lot more available to me than irl friends ofc #tldr im terrible so i like to do like minimal exposure of that to others lmao #if I talked to ppl here more you would all hate me so much #which is why I like tags bc i guess if you’re reading them you understand that it’s not actually important or anything #plus my tags are so convoluted idk if they even make sense #plus I can’t see them that well lmao #idk why I’m like that but I am so gotta contain it #jus talkin #I wish I could like put fandom feelings in writing but it’s very very hard to make the words work especially right now but also always #I mean I still try but rn I can’t get anything finished and even when I do finish fics I never feel like I said all I wanted to #anyway!!!! sorry if you read this!