#it's been buckwild lads ive listened to so many conversations of family members growing and healing and stuff

[meanderfall]

truly my family did such a piss poor job raising me that i literally credit music, tv shows, movies, and books, for actually teaching me anything

#also ngl i think it might've been for the better #im actually kind of glad i shut off the rest of my family as being Not Good and tried to find better things #on the other hand it also could've gone REALLY badly depending on what i watched and internalized lmfao #it's been buckwild lads ive listened to so many conversations of family members growing and healing and stuff #and im happy for them ofc #but im also sitting here like. yeah i knew this family was dysfunctional at best if not straight up toxic. #at the age of like. 5 #and been trying to Not Be a Part of It since i was in my teens #yes i am being kind of judgy about this and i blame the part of me that's still kinda bitter and resentful over my childhood on it #these thoughts brought to you by me listening to the songs that were my crutches as a kid